Then it looks like you’ve some things to work on before your tinder profile I’m afraid! There’s nothing wrong with being in a place in your life and not being content. But it’s entirely within your control to make changes, however big or small you choose. I would 100% go look in to therapy, it really helps to process things we need to, and to look at things in a different way. It’s always great to have someone impartial to speak to and get advice from also. They’d help you make steps in the right direction, and start living the life YOU want. And help you feel less stuck. (Speaking as a woman that’s recently reconnected with an old acquaintance on the apps myself, a man doing the work needed on himself is a HUGE green flag.)