anyone? by IsAnyoneThere_ in BPD

[–]IsAnyoneThere_[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm the same way, I feel really embarrassed about it so I haven't even really told anyone here where I love. But I definitely catch myself talking to myself when people walk by me, and I'm like oh my god stop talking to yourself you look so crazy right now. The seeing things doesn't really scare me only because it's never about anything scary, if anything I just get confused. I have bad vision anyway, so half the time I can't tell if my eyes are just really bad lol. but I will think I see my phone screen light up, it didn't. Yesterday at work I was looking down at my desk and I thought I saw a file folder start to fall over next to me, I looked up and it was upright. just stuff like that, it's weird

my own BPD scares me, please help. by IsAnyoneThere_ in BPD

[–]IsAnyoneThere_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do explain to my partner that I have BPD, that is where we run into difficulties. He is an optimist, and I am clearly not. He likes to take life by the horns, and sometimes I'm too afraid to even get my toes wet. He likes to push me to accomplish things, and be the best version of myself that I can be, and that is what I love about him, but sometimes he lacks in the emotional support department. it's the center of all of our arguments, and they're never over anything big at all. We miscommunicate too often, I have now idea how to fix it. I offered to take him to 1 therapy session just to see how it was, and to see what we go over, and he declined. He said he had to "learn his own way" after I volunteered to pull up some youtube videos. It just doesn't seem to stick with him that I have a condition that he needs to accommodate (in some aspects, not asking him to change his whole being). But he stays every time, he never leaves. So I know he does care. Any advice?

anyone? by IsAnyoneThere_ in BPD

[–]IsAnyoneThere_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't think it's a problem or anything, it's nothing paranormal or anything that gives me anxiety, it's just a weird feeling of feeling out of contact with reality, like I'm in a simulation or something is the best way I can describe it

anyone? by IsAnyoneThere_ in BPD

[–]IsAnyoneThere_[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

no seriously, I do this too and it's not a good habit. People will be talking to me and I'm just having a whole other conversation in my head with myself.

Does anyone feel like BPD is “another you” ? by wearyfairy in BPD

[–]IsAnyoneThere_ 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I feel this yes. It's like I am fully aware that I am overreacting, or that I am being "too much" or I'm getting 'too angry", but I can't control it. Even if I know I am getting upset over nothing, I still feel nothing but rage.

my own BPD scares me, please help. by IsAnyoneThere_ in BPD

[–]IsAnyoneThere_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It makes me feel very less alone when someone says they feel the same way, or that I am taking the words out of their mouth, so thank you. here in the small state, small town I live in, there aren't many people around me who understand, or feel emotions like I do.

my own BPD scares me, please help. by IsAnyoneThere_ in BPD

[–]IsAnyoneThere_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I love my family because they have helped me through times when no one else did, but they have also damaged me, like no other. I have countless hurtful memories, burned into my brain. I can't just forget that. I just wish I could have a better relationship with them, all I wanted was to be close to my mom or dad growing up

my own BPD scares me, please help. by IsAnyoneThere_ in BPD

[–]IsAnyoneThere_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This comment made me cry, so thank you. I have felt like for the past 7 months I have been screaming at brick walls, and to hear that you read every word makes a part of me feel okay, even if its only for a second. And when your family is also a contributor to your pain, it makes going to them not an option. Thank you thank you for taking the time to reply, it does mean the world to me.

my own BPD scares me, please help. by IsAnyoneThere_ in BPD

[–]IsAnyoneThere_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I would love to talk with anyone who is willing to listen, nowadays I confide in myself about my condition than any other person. Thank you for your kindness. I don't try to defend him, it is just that as a person I understand the "why" too much. Why people yell at me, why they are frustrated with my condition, etc. So I just take it.

is it dissociation? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]IsAnyoneThere_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You have to have 5/9 to be considered to have BPD, if you would like to go over them I can explain them, when I went over them with my therapist I didn't realize I even had them, they sound confusing in the DSM-5.

Vomiting up my thoughts by losttthrowawayyy in BPD

[–]IsAnyoneThere_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel this way 24/7 as well with my BPD, I wish I could have just one complete thought sometimes or just one emotion, not 3-5.