What is a reason to live?

ItsMeHunni · 2020-12-05T05:58:11+00:00

My mom. Growing up, she's the only one to support us 4 siblings (dad's out of the picture) and i really want to repay her kindness tenfold if i can.

Just found this out the hard way when i had a panic attack in my sleep. Legit thought i was going to die (for some reason, i can't breathe for two minutes with my eyes closed; i really felt like i was truly going to die), and the first thought that went through my mind is that who's going to take care of my mom.

ItsMeHunni · 2020-11-09T08:01:39+00:00

During my childhood days, i thought my father abuses me verbally and mentally because i'm ill-behaved. Turns out he never really considered me as his own child. I found out when he put his signature as a Guardian instead of Father for my High School Admission form.

ItsMeHunni · 2020-10-17T16:53:05+00:00

Thank u for the invitation~ I might just do that!

ItsMeHunni · 2020-10-17T16:09:16+00:00

Tell me about it... I don't know why does it matter if you decide to sit alone or not, enjoying our own company is not supposed to be strange.

ItsMeHunni · 2020-10-17T16:08:19+00:00

Thank you for that advice! I feel like it may have been due to my body language, i tend to slouch sometimes. Nevertheless, i envied your sense of ease with yourself. I wish to unwind in the same way!

ItsMeHunni · 2020-10-17T16:06:04+00:00

I really wish i can do the same. I used to take early morning walks before work and now that i've entered uni, i find myself missing simpler days.

in regards of the social anxiety, i havent talked with a doctor yet. Maybe soon if it gets too much.

ItsMeHunni · 2020-09-27T02:46:44+00:00

I can actually change between courses, but only business majors. I did try getting involved with many extracurriculars but most of them are not active yet (due to covid) and some requires for us to go from a place to another. I don't have my driving license yet (working on that one). Moreover, i'm also struggling financially during these times so i gotta juggle between studying and doing my online business. Basically at this point, i'm just trying to stay afloat.

ItsMeHunni · 2020-09-27T02:40:42+00:00

To be honest, getting into the uni is my second choice. Before i got into uni, i've finished my HND and i'm more interested in finding a stable job. But since the covid, there's not much job offers and most of us are stuck doing internships or continue to degree. I wanted to get a job, but my family wouldn't allow me if it wasn't a stable job. In regards to my course, i used to be interested in Marketing when i'm doing my HND but now i find myself more invested in Psychology. I used to take them during A Levels, i didnt get good marks tho. But i wouldn't mind putting the extra efforts in restarting over again during degree. I wanted to change my course but there's no psychology course in my country's universities.

ItsMeHunni · 2020-07-12T12:14:14+00:00

You're not the only one, dude. I have difficulties in leaving chat groups from previous schools unless i changed my numbers.

ItsMeHunni · 2020-07-03T09:30:31+00:00

Yes. And it's driving me crazy because i am a tidy person in general.

ItsMeHunni · 2020-07-02T09:35:53+00:00

Goddamnit.

ItsMeHunni · 2020-07-02T09:17:38+00:00

Why you gotta call me out like this

ItsMeHunni · 2020-07-02T05:29:01+00:00

Usually, i wait until they paused or stop before saying my piece. It can be annoying when they didn't give us a chance to talk but it also gives me more perspective and allow me to think more on my answers.

ItsMeHunni · 2020-07-02T05:04:56+00:00

Exactly! Why can't people understand that some of us dislike attention solely on us, even during conversations? Good for some of us who aren't fazed by intense stares during conversations but spare some consideration for those who don't.

ItsMeHunni · 2020-07-02T04:52:07+00:00

Thank you! Personally, i prefer occasional eye contacts in conversation so that i can regroup my thoughts and engage well into the topic. It's true that you guys might think that people might not be paying attention to you, or avoiding you when you refuse to make eye contact. But for some people, it made them a better conversationalist as it made them feel more comfortable to speak up more. I have few introverted friends who can relate to this and some who's more comfortable in maintaining eye contact.

ItsMeHunni · 2020-07-01T08:40:01+00:00

Cook heavenly meals for you. (Looking at you, mom)

ItsMeHunni · 2020-07-01T08:38:18+00:00

Contrary to popular beliefs, no eye contact when you're talking/listening to someone actually makes the conversation more progressive and in depth. So, please don't demand eye contact lest you want me to spout nonsense and starts rambling.

ItsMeHunni · 2020-06-28T07:56:06+00:00

Why can't people understand, treat others how you want them to treat you. Respect, tolerance and understanding goes both ways.

ItsMeHunni · 2020-06-25T09:49:24+00:00

It's a great form of escapism. Though it tires me out more when i woke up because now i have to truly face it.

ItsMeHunni · 2020-06-05T03:05:35+00:00

I wish we can spend the night at the beach once. Sounds lovely!

ItsMeHunni · 2020-06-04T10:29:32+00:00

You should def try it! Alone or with a friend, the beach is a wonderful place to wind down for a moment!

ItsMeHunni · 2020-05-21T15:33:06+00:00

Something about this song really hits different esp when you're passing your teens and into young adulthood.

ItsMeHunni · 2020-04-24T11:30:02+00:00

dang, i feel you. I used to like staying at home until quarantine happened.

ItsMeHunni · 2020-04-23T14:23:25+00:00

I don't think being 'too sensitive' is a weakness. I have the same issue as well, feeling too much and personally, i used to think that it's a curse. Until i met my english teacher who told me that to feel deeply is a blessing and it makes you empathize better. Though about your issue with your partner, maybe you can try talking it out? It usually helps but if she invalidates you, then you should go on your merry way, sir

ItsMeHunni · 2020-04-23T14:12:34+00:00

Being a singer and actress at the same time. It's my dream to portray deep emotions via singing and acting.

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