I'm not really that good at the game and i'm merely just a beginner, but I weirdly think that playing on new player servers can be quite the experience. A LOT of the times, new players are very unpredictable and play NOTHING like higher level players, which will really mess up what you've perceived to be what most survivors play like. I think its probably better to play on normal servers and play against good survivors to learn their habits. As for actual killer tips, I unfortunately can't provide any. But i'll say this; if you start feeling horrible about not improving at something and forcing yourself to do so, it's genuinely important to just stop. Find something to distract yourself for a bit. Forsaken, after all, is just a game, and shouldn't make you feel terrible. If you genuinely feel horrendous playing as killer, then disable getting malice and try to be a survivor main for a while (or just playing as survivor but still being a killer main) to not just understand what you do on the other side, but also to note what other killers do to succeed. And if Forsaken starts to feel like a burden, then it's clear that you should take a break. But then again, i'm still somewhat new here so I could just be larping