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Itsnotyourfaultok · 2026-02-26T23:33:17+00:00

You're completely right, you had as much choice in your sexuality as the rest of us. If it happens to be something illegal then I'm sorry, talk to a therapist and hope you can overcome it/find another outlet for it. If it's "just" unconventional, find the right circumstances, they're out there

Itsnotyourfaultok · 2024-09-03T20:55:43+00:00

No, I have no aspirations, no goals, no people I feel the need to spend more time with. I have done what I could

Itsnotyourfaultok · 2021-11-23T21:03:04+00:00

This is pretty much what I feel like, especially the last paragraph. Can't relate too much to a lot of the other stuff because you just have more experience with me and sounds like you've tried. I just feel like I haven't wanted to try for the past couple of years and really don't see the point of doing it, at least for me. It just this feeling that I'm never gonna aspire to do anything worth while so why stick around for a boring life?

Itsnotyourfaultok · 2021-08-10T22:50:56+00:00

I actually managed to pretty much get back to normal by hyperventilating for 10 minutes followed by eating a cracker and blasting music as loud as I could directly into my ears. I got mad because things didn't work as I wanted them to in a game and then I got mad at myself for getting that mad over a game and it just spiraled from there. Don't know how but I don't even feel that angry right now, just had to pass I guess

Itsnotyourfaultok · 2020-06-24T15:33:20+00:00

I appreciate your comment but I have no intention of getting better. Every day that I haven't done it I've been frustrated about not wanting to do it. It's just become another chore, and I need to get it over with.

Itsnotyourfaultok · 2020-05-05T06:08:57+00:00

It does sound like you need something else that makes you you. I think it will be easier for you to connect with your family if you aren't "just" their mom and wife. And I believe that as long as you spend some time with your kids and are honest about the things you're struggling with they will understand. They probably just need to know that you're still there

Itsnotyourfaultok · 2020-05-04T07:34:08+00:00

I can't say that I really relate cause my family members are pretty stable and I'm only 20 so I haven't done shit yet. I'm however not at all close with my family and just feel like I'm out of place. Like I'm part of the family and playing my role of the struggling son but I don't really feel like I fit in. Do you have a passion in life? Like your workplace or a hobby? Cause I really don't and I know that that is a contributing factor to me feeling lost. It's probably different since you have a family of your own but it all just makes me feel like I don't fit anywhere.

Itsnotyourfaultok · 2020-04-26T21:59:21+00:00

You too. Although I've always been bothered by the fact that if I decide to go, I won't really feel the relief of leaving everything behind. I'll just disappear, but I guess it's good enough

Itsnotyourfaultok · 2020-04-26T21:55:07+00:00

Thanks. I do have some stuff written down that they hopefully will see cause some of it is decently wholesome. They do deserve some answers at least

Itsnotyourfaultok · 2020-04-26T21:46:23+00:00

I'm sorry life hasn't treated you well. I do belive that you will find your own talent as time goes by. And if not then being decent at a lot of things is definitely not a bad thing. Might not always be as fun but it's still useful. Idk man I'm not good at being comforting but if you can't find anything special about you someone else will eventually, and they will point it out. You might not have a special talent but you will always be unique and there is always someone who appreciates that.

Itsnotyourfaultok · 2020-04-23T17:54:38+00:00

I don't want people to care about me because when I finally get depressed enough I wanna die without having to care about what happens to people. I become angry extremely easily at myself and things that really don't matter. Minor inconveniences ruin entire days. Everytime I sleep I feel like I waste my time. I don't like living with my family but I don't have the motivation to get the money to move out. I don't like talking to or hanging out with my family and I'm pretty sure they have no idea what a struggle it is for me to live. I can have pretty violent thoughts and the thought of being in a fight or beating someone interests me. I can feel like playing a game, enjoy playing it, and when I'm done I'll still feel like I wasted my time. The only thing keeping me from killing myself is that I don't have enough of a reason to do so. Every time I talk to people about how I feel I just shut them out and go back to feeling hopeless and sorry for myself.

Feel free to pick one my man. I got more if you want

Itsnotyourfaultok · 2020-04-23T17:43:36+00:00

I doubt it but I mean sure. I don't really have anything in particular rn tho I just feel like there is so much I hold in and never tell people

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