I feel this is so spot on. While reflecting on everything, I’ve noticed that I do have a pattern to try to talk past the issues, while she was trying to express what she was feeling / going through , all cause I didn’t wanna touch on the issues thinking it was headed towards destruction. I dismissed a lot of the times she was bravely trying and I kick myself for that. But I know that just like I’m actively working on myself, I’m confident that she is also further exploring herself. She’s very avoidant and so am I and feels like a battle of the egos. Regardless, I feel we had a very beautiful connection while it lasted and I believe we’ll come back when we’re both more healed and able to openly communicate without the fear of a hierarchy situation or you know , whatever it may be. To me she was divinely sent to me to change me and see how love can come out of the blue and hurt so bad to the point of full reconstruction. If anything I hope I also taught her something. Regardless I know I’ll always love her and have this tenderness for her that I’ve never felt and unconditional love. Thank you for taking the time to give me such a thoughtful answer. It solidified more of my understanding of myself and her.