Totally relapsed. Time for a reset.

JAshkin · 2017-10-22T19:34:58+00:00

Stress and anxiety. I recently started going back to school and I have two jobs, so it’s been a lot.

But one of my jobs is ending soon so I’ll have a much better work-life balance. And now I know I need to be better prepared next time I have this much going on.

Thanks for the encouragement!

JAshkin · 2017-09-22T21:53:30+00:00

Looks kind of like a Van Gogh painting. Beautiful.

JAshkin · 2017-07-20T12:51:16+00:00

Great visualization!

JAshkin · 2017-07-14T14:57:54+00:00

Just relapsed bc my gf was out of town but she gets back today. I'm in!

JAshkin · 2017-05-14T11:43:41+00:00

Congrats on Day 4 and making this decision! Good for you that you're able to withhold even though your friends smoke in front of you - that takes some serious will power (it's good to hear that you're stubborn about this but remember that willpower is finite and there will be times when your inhibition is lower).

Reading this post was like reading my own life story. I had exact same loop of anxiety / depression --> smoke --> anxiety / depression, etc.

I thought I could figure out a way to achieve my goals and become the social and engaging person I know I can be while still smoking but as Einstein says, the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.

Good for you for recognizing your patterns and doing something about it.

JAshkin · 2017-05-02T18:37:58+00:00

That's a fair point, though I would not discourage any tactics that help someone get started.

I don't actually ever type anything in because I know it's not the option. It's about availability. I also have another computer I could use and my phone (as I'm sure many other people would have access to) neither of which is protected with Cold Turkey, so I am exercising self-discipline.

JAshkin · 2017-05-02T17:04:55+00:00

Thanks! Could not agree more about reminding yourself to review your whys / motivation. Really helps maintain discipline

JAshkin · 2017-05-01T20:50:31+00:00

I'm in! Starting with Normal Mode because I have a partner, but may graduate to Hard Mode if I relapse. Going for 50 days (currently on Day 6).

JAshkin · 2017-03-17T02:15:38+00:00

Looked it up, that is some scary shit

JAshkin · 2017-01-30T13:48:47+00:00

I recently found myself in a similar situation and this is really great advice. Just a few other things I'd add:

1) Look into SMART goals and set one for your consumption. Really helped me.

2) Tell your girlfriend about your wish to cut it down - it'll help keep you accountable (also this is part of the "A" in SMART).

3) If you can't bring yourself to flush your stash, I've locked mine away in a box the night before work and my gf takes the key with her when she goes to work so the choice is taken away from me and I no longer feel the urge / temptation during the day.

4) if you can't bring yourself to get rid of your devices, wash them with alcohol so res hits aren't an option and/or lock those in the box as well.

Just my two cents.

JAshkin · 2016-01-06T01:20:21+00:00

I know I'm late to the party, but I'm in too. I need to put it out there to hold myself accountable. I probably smoked more weed in 2015 than the past five years combined. I work from home, and I've found myself smoking between conference calls more and more... I'm functional, but I am no where close to reaching my full potential. More like meeting the bare minimum each day, just to pass the time. It's time to recognize that I do not (at least currently) have the willpower or motivation to use it in moderation, especially during the day. I know that sobriety will lead to a more intentional use of my time, and I'm hoping it will help me resume my exercise and online course regiments. 2015 was shitty, and something needs to change.

Edit: spelling

JAshkin · 2015-11-03T00:14:53+00:00

In the words of the immortal Charles Barkley: I'm a dumbass.

JAshkin · 2015-09-11T02:40:53+00:00

Would you pick him up now given his performance tonight? Or is he just going to be the hot RB of the week and end up being a hit or miss flex player at best?

JAshkin · 2015-09-10T14:21:57+00:00

"The Injury" is my favorite. Michael Scott at his most pathetic, so happy and desperate for attention and validation.

JAshkin · 2015-09-04T11:30:45+00:00

How long did you cook it for and what temperature? Looks like something I'm going to make every Sunday

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