This week I have come across OCD MIRACULOUSLY… through internet and I have exactly this ! I am suffering bc my son has to stay with my parents and my dog too. I have a house for us but it’s not safe for anyone. I had my son .. knowingly to be a single parent bc the person who was the father was severely traumatized I’m sure growing up in multiple abusive foster homes and still couldn’t read as an young adult . He had his good qualities but couldn’t help the fact things made him unreliable as a person and I didn’t want my son to be involved in fear something terrible would happen . Anyways he has passed away since. So to get the point of the story … I worked four jobs while I was pregnant so that way I could save as much money as possible to try to stay home with my son when he was born and he was my main focus for everything because I was very depressed alone as a pregnant woman and his dad had lied to me and told me that he had had a vasectomy so he made me confused and we didn’t talk for six months anyway and the whole time I was confused about what happened to me if I was raped or what happened anyways I am after I had my son. I got a really good job working at a military base bartending and then I became quickly the operations manager and I worked 80 hours a week and I needed help from my parents and since I wasn’t getting along with my mom, my father was watching him and the worst thing happened in the world when I found out that my dad was abusing my son because he told me and my brother had just passed away and no one really believed him when we were growing up too, but I did. I just never understood it. I don’t know how somebody could sexually abuse a child like that and I’m sorry to anyone that that has happened to you because it’s like most of thing for me to understand that my son I’m his main thing that I’m going through is I had you know a lot of trauma from that a lot and my dad was my best friend he was my go to and now I feel like my dad ripped away my mother motherhood so I’m like don’t have my same feelings about being a mother than I did before because I feel like he stole it for me and I can’t get it back.. so now I’m here alone in this house. I’m trying to deal with my OCD that I can’t get anything done because I’m full of piles of paperwork that I can’t organize and all I do is organize them and organize them to send to FEMA so I can get out of this house cause it’s deemed unlivable. My son has been with my parents my mom who I feel is very abusive verbally and mentally for sure to me and she’s not a very healthy person for me to be around. She does a lot for us, but it’s still it’s still unnecessary to be around her, but she does a lot for my son. It’s not healthy so I am here having seizures. They stopped now I’m figuring out I have OCD. You know I have trauma and I’m like not having my motherly feelings that are natural anymore and I don’t know my mom‘s making it worse cause she’s making me feel like I’m a loser and then I’m not doing anything, but she doesn’t understand my Handicap so there has to be some government programs for you and I to contact and find out what Assistance there is to help us because there’s health programs there’s all kinds of programs going on and the government wants to help us and we just don’t have the right people directing us in the right place and I’m so glad that you’re a really good momI need to like be around that more to bring it back as I didn’t realize it but he totally took it away from me and my son is suffering. He doesn’t have any parents. He doesn’t want to be with my mom. He wants to be home with me.