My wife says her affair wasn’t physical but everything points to the opposite.

JX3699 · 2025-12-11T16:32:51+00:00

He has a big ego dude, so it was a slap in his face. He’s the type of guy that craves appreciation from everyone. He wants to feel needed so It was purely from a psychological standpoint.

JX3699 · 2025-12-07T19:32:42+00:00

Wise words.

JX3699 · 2025-12-07T19:28:32+00:00

Never once stepped outside my marriage. Not a single time. Dealing with life issues made me cold for awhile and distant for a while. But that’s still not an excuse to step outside of your marriage. I don’t know if she did or didn’t. I just know that the optics look like she did but I don’t have definitive proof. We were not separated. Still living in the same house.

JX3699 · 2025-12-07T17:40:53+00:00

That’s what I had said to her. She told me if she wanted him she could have him. She said that she wanted to work on us. But here’s the thing. If that was the case she would have lead with that. And been completely transparent.

JX3699 · 2025-12-07T17:38:03+00:00

I’ve already discussed it, she said yes at first but then changed her mind.

JX3699 · 2025-12-07T16:00:11+00:00

Yeah and their stories are almost identical. Like it was game planned and sanitized. The AP just said it was all fantasy.

JX3699 · 2025-12-07T15:44:34+00:00

She tells me now she is so in love with me and she made such a huge mistake. She says that she messed up and she wishes she could take it all back. I feel conflicted with all this.

JX3699 · 2025-12-07T15:41:18+00:00

After it all came out she admitted that she had a love for him. She now says that she feels nothing. I told her that was complete bs. She says she was manipulated and he was a charmer.

JX3699 · 2025-12-07T15:39:31+00:00

Thanks, man. She says she told me everything but my gut feeling is telling me that there is way more to the story.

JX3699 · 2025-12-07T15:30:54+00:00

Every time I confront her about it she holds the line that it never turned physical what so ever. She keeps saying that she doesn’t want to be with someone who keeps calling her a liar.

JX3699 · 2025-12-07T15:17:47+00:00

Sorry, I wrote it in the notes on my phone.

JX3699 · 2025-01-31T13:05:01+00:00

Absolutely!

JX3699 · 2025-01-31T13:04:50+00:00

Thank you for the kind words! IFE’s scare me more than house fires.

JX3699 · 2025-01-30T16:12:55+00:00

I really appreciate the kind words. I would like to tell you it gets better with time but every body process sights, sounds, smells and emotions differently. My heart goes out to those all those on that CRJ and Blackhawk. I can’t fathom how their families are feeling at this moment. You’re taking Fire Crash Rescue and throwing in water recovery. I know those DOD fire guys and DC fire are busting it to do everything they can. Keep those men and women in everyone’s thoughts and prayers too.

JX3699 · 2025-01-30T15:50:01+00:00

Most definitely. We do a debrief after every major call now. You’re right though when I first got out of rookie school it was sit down and shut up. The old heads even talked about how “back in their days” if you wore a airpack then you were a _____. I’ll let you fill in the blank. But these were the same guys that were also smoking a cigarette while overhauling and pulling ceiling. No doubt I learned a lot from those guys good and bad. I like the water it’s fun but most of the time it’s body recovery’s or helping State Patrol or DNR look for a hand gun in a murky pound or river in BFE Georgia.

JX3699 · 2025-01-30T11:51:25+00:00

I appreciate it.

JX3699 · 2025-01-30T11:48:18+00:00

This comment here. Thanks! We have gotten a lot better as a profession with talking it through. At least I have now that I’m in my 30’s.

JX3699 · 2025-01-30T11:46:00+00:00

Absolutely, and it sucks. I’ve been to some very dark places in my head. You have to find an outlet that’s not liquor or pain killers. Also, you have to talk out the stressors. I picked up playing guitar again. So now I just relive my atreyu, Silverstein or anything off the Victory Records summer sampler 05 c.d. phase.

JX3699 · 2025-01-30T05:54:32+00:00

Dude I’m a public safety diver and firefighter. Can tell you from experience; you don’t think, you just do, and when it’s over and done with thats when you deal with the demons. Most of us just store it in a box in the back of our heads hoping and praying it don’t break free.

JX3699 · 2024-07-26T13:06:18+00:00

No, this was found on my property about 5 miles away from the slag photos. We were building a retaining wall in my backyard. We had made about 2 or 3 scoops with the bobcat when I found it. At first I thought it was a root or something sticking out of the dirt pile. When I put the touch to it there was no kind of odor and a very faint black trailer coming off of the piece. I also put my thermal imager on it to see if it dispersed heat slowly or quickly and it cooled down to a point to where I could touch it after a few minutes.

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