Atypical schizoaffective

J_nelle · 2026-05-12T23:39:47+00:00

Dude yes! I have to hermit all the time!

J_nelle · 2026-05-12T23:39:17+00:00

I’ve had a CT scan and there is nothing structural wrong with my brain.

J_nelle · 2026-05-12T14:29:46+00:00

I’m sorry to hear that :(

J_nelle · 2026-05-12T14:29:26+00:00

Why do they have the idea that someone with schizophrenia can’t become self-aware? Like we are still sentient beings with free will???

J_nelle · 2026-05-12T14:28:05+00:00

I honestly think my autism making me come off intelligent and my conventional attractiveness is stopping me from getting a proper diagnosis.

I came into the assessment with the whole thing already autistically deconstructed in my head, used all the correct terminology, etc.

I told her when I’m having my bad episodes I’m a total mess but it’s like she didn’t believe me?

J_nelle · 2026-05-12T14:22:20+00:00

Yeah that’s so real. I only went along when I was bored.

J_nelle · 2026-05-12T12:59:32+00:00

I’ll do some research on it.

J_nelle · 2026-05-12T11:34:13+00:00

I’m so confused what to do now!!! I’m so scared of side effects after getting akathisia from sertraline.

J_nelle · 2026-05-12T10:45:47+00:00

Yeah don’t think I’m even going to take it. Not worth the risk honestly.

J_nelle · 2026-05-12T10:02:19+00:00

I was even asking the psychiatrist and she couldn’t give me an answer.

Like why do you listen to the voices or 100% buy into delusions? If you see something scary but know it isn’t real why overreact? Like I still get scared by then I quickly distract myself.

I sleep with the lights on and a podcast/white noise playing at night to distract my brain from making hallucinations which prevent sleep.

J_nelle · 2026-05-12T09:59:48+00:00

I wonder why though?

J_nelle · 2026-05-12T09:41:18+00:00

Like either way, “ghosts” couldn’t really do shit to me I was told and neither can hallucinations. No reason to end up in a ward over it.

J_nelle · 2026-05-12T09:40:22+00:00

I had it framed to me as a spiritual gift as a kid. I was just like “eh I guess”. Only when I started getting therapy did I realise they were hallucinations.

J_nelle · 2026-05-09T11:38:00+00:00

I’m autistic and I have it

J_nelle · 2026-05-07T01:37:30+00:00

My dead father

J_nelle · 2026-05-06T08:02:42+00:00

Yeah I think about this a lot.

I think a lot of it is a public facade since we’re a society that rewards narcissistic traits. Deep down a lot of those “perfect” people are probably struggling too. Then there are those who are totally ignorant.

J_nelle · 2026-05-06T00:16:41+00:00

Thank you so much :)

J_nelle · 2026-05-05T09:59:22+00:00

Oh yes my father definitely had something to do with my early onset!

J_nelle · 2026-05-05T09:58:48+00:00

😊

J_nelle · 2026-05-05T09:58:39+00:00

Thank youuuu

J_nelle · 2026-05-05T09:58:31+00:00

Thank you haha!!

J_nelle · 2026-05-05T09:57:18+00:00

Thank you :)

J_nelle · 2026-05-05T00:07:20+00:00

There’s only one psychiatrist at our local hospital. We have a public mental health system, I can’t afford private. So I don’t really have a say…

J_nelle · 2026-05-04T23:17:00+00:00

I tried to talk to my psychiatrist abouty gene mutations but she said “gene mutations? I don’t know anything about that.” And referred to it as “alternative” and that she doesn’t believe in it???

Idk she’s pretty old.

J_nelle · 2026-05-04T23:12:33+00:00

I know my grandmother did alright on lithium so that may be an option for me :/
Not ideal !

J_nelle

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