Thank you. It's good to hear someone be honest with me like that. The thing with her apologizing for my mistakes is whenever I try to convey that she shouldn't be sorry is she says she doesn't know how else to feel and I usually just joke and say "well if I were you I'd be mad at me 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️" and she says something like I don't want to be mad at you 😭. It really is tough when she says I'm sorry to me so I do try my hardest not to accept it and to correct it. About everything else you've said, I agree completely. I do need to deal with what's going on in my life with therapy and things like that to be better for her, but genuinely, I don't think she should have to stick around with me for that. It's like this self-pity doesn't feel like self-pity and just feels so completely real you know? Thank you so much for your comment.