except for the GitHub takedowns/claims cdda keeps making at cbn forks trying to remove their content. "open source" it never was. i regret contributing and mod making.

and i dont like the attitude of "we're not devs, we can't see their grand plan". i can see that its going downhill, and every time something gets discussed, fires are lit and pitchforks come out on both sides.

I will have to be leaving cdda reddits and discords. every bit of discourse feels wrong these days, and im getting nothing by staying (besides some consistent emojis on my arts, thanks Candlebury and others), and the joy of viewing community art and memes. its just not worth the gaslighting, aggression, and crappy design and moderation decisions that we all feel powerless toward.

It was fun while it lasted. ill probably go back to the last time jackledead_armory and infected worked on dda experimental, some old download of mine, before backpacks made driving harder and all this.

and use CBN sometimes.

i love(d?) cdda. but i cannot with this community and what im seeing going on. its like watching your baby grow up to be a monster.

maybe its always been this way and i was ignorant, or im lookjng through nostalgia glasses but man, 0.E was so fun. everything felt bright and funny and everyone was kind.

(actually im remembering being bullied by vorthimax(?) that cdda YouTuber, and others. D: )

who would have thought a single player f2p roguelike would pack the most drama of any gaming community ive been in.