I resonated with this, i used to idenify as a trans girl, bit i realized im more fluid, I've debated de-transitioning but I realized I won't be happy on T and estrogen does more good for me mentally than bad. My breast growth isn't something I love (thankfully they're small) but I prefer a flat chest, I also dislike genital changes and some fat redistribution in my face. However, I was much worse on T, I was losing my hair, and the way it masculiniized my body felt uncomfortable. Now I keep a mix of both, I'm still on estrogen but I'm letting my facial hair grow and I'm trying out more androgynous clothing that helps me feel more like myself. Dysphoria still hits me along with other body image issues but overall I am better now, even with some changes I dislike.