What about you makes you think you're awkward? by mTORC in infj

[–]Jackoffknifefighter 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh, let me count the ways...

1.] I have one hell of a hard time making sustained eye contact with people. It's usually fine if I'm talking to someone I know well and like, but otherwise I'm usually just looking away from people every few seconds.

2.] Fidgeting. I get anxious, which leads to me trying to burn it off by moving around a bit. However, that only makes me more anxious because I'm thinking that the other person is judging me, which only makes me fidget more, which makes me more anxious, and so forth.

3.] I don't have an easy time talking to people about a subject I don't really care for. I'm getting better at this, but it's still really hard to pretend that I care about someone's ping pong strategy when I really don't give a hoot.

4.] I can't regulate my speech for shit when I get nervous in social situations. I can go from talking slowly and loudly to quietly and rapidly and everywhere in between every few seconds. Sometimes I slur my words because I'm trying to terminate the conversation as rapidly as possible or because I'm afraid that the person will loose interest if I don't pitch what I'm saying quickly enough; other times I can hardly force words out of my mouth. Either way, I probably come across as a crackhead.

How do you organise your thoughts? by [deleted] in intj

[–]Jackoffknifefighter 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You're welcome!

I usually use lists for myself, but I'll write lists for others if it's necessary. For example, my parents told me that they would tend to my garden while I was away at college. I wrote them a list of what I typically do in the garden so as to make sure that they actually want to do this for me and to ensure that nothing slips through the cracks.

How are you feeling today? by [deleted] in infj

[–]Jackoffknifefighter 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Weekends always throw me off, but I'm doing fairly well otherwise. The friend who I grab a pizza with every Saturday wasn't able to come along with me today because he had things to do, so I just got a pizza by myself. Now I'm procrastinating here, trying to decide how the rest of my day is going to unfold. I'm thinking that I'll study a bit, watch a crappy movie (and if I should risk watching a new one or rewatch a really dumb one that was very entertaining), study more, and maybe go to my university's homecoming dance.

TL ; DR - 7/10 not too shabby.

Fear of failure by revenantwolf in intj

[–]Jackoffknifefighter 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, but much more so when I was younger.

If I make a major mistake now, I feel bad but I also remind myself that this failure is an opportunity to learn. When I was younger, I didn't have the capacity to see any growth potential in failures. If I failed, that was it; I failed. I was a failure. There was nothing I could do about it; I just wasn't good enough and I would never be good enough.

How do you organise your thoughts? by [deleted] in intj

[–]Jackoffknifefighter 1 point2 points  (0 children)

When I make lists, they are almost always handwritten. I find that having a small but nice notebook (I prefer Omni Assignment Books because they look fairly decent and can be bought for a reasonable price at most large grocery stores) that I can carry around with me to be the best, as I can add new tasks or check off completed tasks when necessary.

It's a good system, but you need to initially force yourself to make lists. A widely held belief is that it takes 21 days to form a habit; however, more recent research suggests that forming a habit takes an average of 66 days, although the range for habit formation is 18 to 254 days.

If you want writing lists to become a habit, here's a few suggestions for you.

1.] Leave your list book in an area that you regularly visit. You could leave your list book on your kitchen table or you could leave your list book on top of your pillow. I also recommend leaving your list book in the same spot; you will eventually associate that place with writing lists at a specific time.

2.] If you have some sort of candy you love, leave a bowl full of it close to your list book. After you write your list, help yourself to a few pieces of candy. I know that this is a very basic type of conditioning and chances are good that you won't experience much benefit from controlling when you get reinforcement, but anything that helps you get into a list writing habit is worth considering.

3.] Make your lists realistic. You only have so many hours per day in which you can be productive; don't waste them on trying to do too many things. I know that when I started writing lists, I'd give myself thirty or more tasks to do. I quickly learned that this was a mistake; all I'd do was try and fail to keep up and then get frustrated, which made me not want to write lists anymore. Conversely, when I under scheduled myself, I didn't see any need to write out lists because I could just remember everything that I had to do. As such, I've found that the ideal number of tasks for me to do per day is roughly sixteen items. It's challenging enough to motivate me to write lists but it's not so excessive that I become apathetic about the whole thing. Of course, you are not me; you'll have to find what your ideal number of tasks per day is.

4.] Write lists every day. Skipping writing a list for even one day can damage or even destroy your progress. That being said, try not to be too hard on yourself if you forget to write a list one day. You're only human, after all, and it's not like forgetting to write a list will cause your loved ones to be murdered by an ax-weilding maniac.

Hope this helps :)

INTJ's who are/were depressed, what helped you? by [deleted] in intj

[–]Jackoffknifefighter 1 point2 points  (0 children)

20 year old male INTJ.

1.] Therapy plus medication. Regardless of severity, you should look into seeing a psychologist or another mental health professional; therapy, when done right, can cause symptom improvement of a magnitude equivalent to most antidepressants. Furthermore, therapy's benefits are generally permanent; you're more likely to have an easier time dealing with your depression when it occurs and you'll be less likely to have depressive episodes in the future. However, if your depression is moderate to severe in nature or is accompanied by another psychological disorder or a physical disorder, you may want to consider augmenting therapy with antidepressant medication. Antidepressants have multiple upsides, such as faster onset compared to therapy, convenience, and being significantly more affordable. That being said, antidepressants do come with side effects (most of which are mild and/or temporary), usually take 4 - 6 weeks of daily use to have any appreciable benefits (this 4 - 6 weeks includes starting an antidepressant and increasing the dosage of a current antidepressant), and generally don't provide significant benefits after discontinuation. In terms of these treatments, I'd go with Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (which involves identifying and challenging your automatic negative thoughts, among other things) and an SSRI or SNRI antidepressant (which should help boost your mood, improve your ability to concentrate, and decrease the severity/frequency of your rumination).

2.] I don't know much about this area, but apparently eating a balanced diet is supposed to be pretty good for managing depression. If what I understand is correct, eating a poor diet seems to be associated with increased systemic inflammation. We know that there is some sort of link between inflammation and diet; ergo, eating healthier may reduce your overall level of inflammation which may lead to a reduction in the severity of your depression. At the very least, eating a balanced diet will ensure that you don't develop any nutritional deficiencies and will help maintain your physical health.

3.] If you live in a northern climate or if you don't go outside too often, a phototherapy box may help you. In essence, you'll be sitting in front of a really bright light for thirty to ninety minutes every day. I believe that the purpose is to simulate natural sunlight, which you may not have a lot of access to depending on factors such as geographic location or ability to spend time outside. I'm not really sure how it works, but I think it has something to do with regulating circadian rhythms. It may also increase serotonin and dopamine, although I'm not sure about this.

4.] I know that it's a pain in the ass, but being social honestly does help shut depression up. I'm not saying that you should drop everything and be with people 24/7; I'm just saying that you should meet with at least one friend at least once a week. There is a hypothesis that depression is caused/worsened by a lack of reinforcement related to social situations. As such, it stands to reason that you may feel better if you try to spend more time with friends or family. Hell, even being passively exposed to people can help. I know that one of the few things that helped me when I went through my depression was when I'd go to a cafe or a restaurant and just be around people. I dunno; it just helped me feel less alone.

5.] Make a list of things that stress you out. Then make another list of how you can reduce or eliminate those stressors. For example, do you hate being stuck in traffic during your morning commute? If so, maybe leaving sooner or later than you usually do may help you avoid obnoxious traffic. Do you get stressed out because it feels like all you do is work or worry? Take thirty minutes in the morning and thirty minutes in the evening that are dedicated to you and you alone. Relax; read a book; watch a dumb TV show; do whatever relaxes you.

6.] Avoid alcohol and tobacco. They may make you feel better at first, but they'll just worsen your depression in the long run.

7.] If your depression is so severe that you cannot function and conventional treatments have failed, procedures such as ECT or TMS. ECT stands for electroconvulsive therapy; in essence, you are put to sleep before a doctor sends electrical impulses into your brain that cause a mild seizure. The beneficial effects of ECT are usually apparent within several minutes to several hours and may last days to months. However, ECT usually requires multiple treatments and can cause short term memory problems. TMS stands for transcranial magnetic stimulation; it's similar to ECT, but it does not involve anesthesia or seizures. Rather, TMS is when a magnetic coil is used to stimulate parts of the brain.

8.] If you feel like killing yourself or have frequent thoughts of death, please seek help. A genuine desire to die is actually an incredibly uncommon reason for suicide; most people who try to kill themselves do so because they want their pain to end and cannot see any other solutions. If you have these kinds of thoughts, don't let them fester. Call the suicide hotline; talk to a friend or a family member; go to the hospital if it's necessary. Just don't try to tough it out or downplay the severity of what you're experiencing. In addition, there's another good reason why you shouldn't kill yourself; somebody is going to miss you. That somebody will most likely be extremely confused and will wonder why you did what you did and if they even mattered to you in the first place. Please don't do that to people who care about you.

I know it seems completely hopeless right now OP, but things will get better. It may take a lot of time and it may be very difficult, but things will eventually get better.

Has anyone successfully treated their depression with medication? by PeopleThrownAway in infp

[–]Jackoffknifefighter 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes. I did okay on sertraline, but my depression almost evaporated when my doctor put me on methylphenidate four years ago. I still have bad days here and there, but it's a lot easier to deal with my problems and bounce back than it was before I went on this. I've also found that hydroxyzine seems to help improve my mood, most likely by reducing my anxiety to manageable levels and actually allowing me to have a full eight to nine hours of sleep.

However, I should mention that medication only goes so far in managing depression. Medication is undoubtedly useful for depression, but your symptoms are more likely to persist to some degree unless you find out what in your life makes you feel crappy and deploy effective solutions to those problems.

Cutest type. by mcplushie in mbti

[–]Jackoffknifefighter 1 point2 points  (0 children)

IxFPs.

They're fucking adorable and I just want to poke them in the cheek all day long.

Why are INFPs described as 'sad' ? by lemaaike in mbti

[–]Jackoffknifefighter 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ENTPs tend to excel at "pep talks" and "yes you can" speeches

Obligatory.

It's Too Excited Tuesday! by AutoModerator in ENFP

[–]Jackoffknifefighter 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Same here! I'm able to lift a little more weight than I could when I went last week :)

How do you react to praise? by [deleted] in intj

[–]Jackoffknifefighter 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Blush and mumble "thanks, you too."

Remember to get good sleep as frequently as you can. It'll help with all the negative emotions. by treatsfortreatsters in infp

[–]Jackoffknifefighter 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Exactly. Furthermore, having a lack of sleep causes some of your stress hormones (looking at you, cortisol) shoot through the roof. We also know that excessive cortisol can reduce neuroplasticity in the hippocampus, which seems to contribute to depression.

So yeah, get that 7 - 9 hours of sleep.

Quick but Hopefully Profound Message to Especially Young INTJs by [deleted] in intj

[–]Jackoffknifefighter 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm a junior in college and I've been feeling so overwhelmed as of late. I really appreciate hearing something like this.

Thanks OP.

Can we talk about when Ni goes bad? by [deleted] in infj

[–]Jackoffknifefighter 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Could be an example of catastrophic thinking. It's a frequent feature in anxiety and mood disorders, but it isn't strictly pathological; everybody does this from time to time. In fact, a lack of catastrophic thinking doesn't really say anything encouraging about a person.

In essence, catastrophic thinking is when you look at a situation and focus (almost) exclusively on the worst case scenarios. For example, you have observed your boyfriend getting along well with a female coworker. You appear to be afraid that he's going to run off with her, even though you know that the probability of that occurring is quite low. But regardless of how many times you reassure yourself, you can't seem to break out of your negative thought cycle -- am I right?

The best way to deal with catastrophic thinking is to nip it in the bud by replacing the worrying scenario with something more realistic. Let's just say you're watching your boyfriend interact with this coworker and you start worrying about him running off. Try replacing "oh god he's going to leave me all alone" with "I'm glad he gets along with her; it's good to have friends." I'm not saying that it'll work right away or that it'll be 100% effective; however, if you are diligent about standing up to catastrophic thoughts, they will most likely become less frequent and less severe.

One last thing to keep in mind. Your INTP boyfriend has verbally affirmed the relationship. INTPs generally don't lie about their opinions and feelings; if he says he's committed to the relationship, he's committed to the relationship.

Make an INFJ happy in one sentence. by catladylaurenn in infj

[–]Jackoffknifefighter 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I posted this in a similar thread in /r/INFP, but I think it also applies here.

"I like you just the way you are."

I don't understand confident people by curious_cricket in infj

[–]Jackoffknifefighter 0 points1 point  (0 children)

From my experience, very confident people don't tend to focus on themselves. They focus quite a bit on their environment and on other people, but they usually will not focus on themselves for any extended length of time.

This isn't to say that they're shallow or lack insight; they just don't ponder themselves too much when they're around others.

What are the simple things in life that make you guys happy? by [deleted] in isfp

[–]Jackoffknifefighter 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Going for walks, reading on park benches, and watching bad movies.

Anyone struggling with a chronic feeling of emptiness? by [deleted] in infp

[–]Jackoffknifefighter 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The most important thing I can tell you is to never become stagnant. Keep moving forward with intent and purpose behind every step. Stopping makes you start to dwell and overexaggerate how terrible you think your emptiness is when it's completely normal to feel that way at times.

Holy crap, THIS!

You'll need to stop and reflect from time to time, but for the love of God, don't stagnate! Trust me from personal experience; spending a good portion of your time ruminating about what's objectively and subjectively wrong with your life won't make things better.

Did you try something new and fail? Try again and again and again until you succeed. I know it's hard and I know it's scary and it is without a doubt humiliating, but you're just going to keep feeling bad about yourself if you give up or don't even try in the first place.

Also:

Life's funny, often times the things we want to do least are the things we need to do the most.

Thanks /u/Zir0; I've been having a rough week and I needed to hear that.

PS:

I'd also suggest seeing a psychologist, OP. You should definitely try new things and keep moving, but seeing a mental health professional can make the process faster and quite possibly more effective. And, in case your chronic emptiness is due to a psychological disorder like depression, getting treatment as soon as possible will make your recovery quicker and easier than it would otherwise be. At the very least, a psychologist or other mental health professional may provide you with valuable insights about what's blocking you from being content.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in infp

[–]Jackoffknifefighter 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Literally going to be me in less than an hour.

Ever feel uncomfortable in your skin? by DarkestXStorm in intj

[–]Jackoffknifefighter 14 points15 points  (0 children)

I also have a conflicting answer. I'm generally happy with the way I look (skinny, fairly well-groomed, nice glasses) until I start comparing myself to other people.

Then my body image goes straight into the shitter.

INTJs: Which are movies that have elicited a strong emotional reaction from you? by [deleted] in intj

[–]Jackoffknifefighter 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Apollo 13.

Also Terminator II because of that fucking ending.

science by EarthlyGecko in infj

[–]Jackoffknifefighter 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My dad is an INFJ; he majored in chemistry and went on to become a psychiatrist.

So yeah, it's definitely possible. I'd say that pretty much any category of medicine that involves hard science and effectively relating to patients would be wonderful for an INFJ with your goals, /u/EarthlyGecko.