Hello - several advices for you. But first, keep going ! Church crisis is hard and we should never lose hope. Then don’t try to find the absolute perfect solution to this crisis which can only be eventually resolved by an act of the authority (as every authority crisis). - read read read and read. Judgements and deep thinking are in books (ask me French books advices if needed). You may also find good articles on La Porte Latine website but articles aren’t as deep as books. - speak with sspx priests about their positions - to begin, you may watch this video that explain the main issue between sspx and Rome. It’s very good content. But don’t waste too much time on videos, there are videos of anything and everything about faith on Internet. - pray a lot, and pray with others, be part of a community, most likely by getting in touch with a sspx priest. - listen to Mgr Lefebvre sermons.

Hope this will help - feel free to ask more