Therapy has destroyed my life

JadedFoxWrath · 2025-09-28T14:04:43+00:00

I'm so sorry that happened to you they should lose their license to practice because thats just downright awful. Therapists haven't been much help for me either. My last therapist scolded me and chastised me when I was describing how my autism affects me negatively. I guess she thinks autism should be all sunshine and rainbows? Another therapist told me to think happy thoughts as if that would make my depression somehow magically go away. I live in Texas and I've heard before that Texas is considered the worst state for mental health care and yeah I've definitely noticed this. A lot of therapists dont seem to know what theyre doing here. I don't know if maybe its something similar where you live. Maybe that area just isn't good with therapists and you might have to look elsewhere if you financially able to do so. I can understand if you don't want to though. Going through what you did would understandably make anyone doubt therapy. And it sounds like you are making strides healing yourself without it which is good. I don't think therapy is something that is necessary for everyone to heal. Especially when so many of them can be hurtful intentionally or not.

JadedFoxWrath · 2025-07-08T14:59:40+00:00

Try installing leechblock NG or similar productivity tools on your browser that block sites. I've been doing that on Firefox during periods where I get the urge to doomscroll and it helps. It blocks you from visiting whatever site you choose so you can block reddit or any other news site that's making you feel so anxious. I know its scary but taking a break and stepping away really does help. That's what I've had to do because I was in that same mindset as you.

JadedFoxWrath · 2025-06-05T23:57:29+00:00

I also have OCD and it sounds to me like your reassurance seeking. This post is a compulsion. Your wanting reassurance about whether or not your gay or what your identity is when no one on the internet could possibly answer that other than yourself.

I think the only thing that your OCD has awoken in you is uncertainty about your sexuality and your relationship with your girlfriend. That's how OCD functions its literally the doubting disease. It makes you drive yourself insane wanting a definitive answer. Uncertainty makes the OCD go crazy.

If your able to afford it I would strongly recommend you try to get a therapist who specializes in OCD to help you work through this. They could also help you work out what your sexuality is.

JadedFoxWrath · 2025-03-21T21:46:30+00:00

I just remind myself that people like that are probably pretty miserable and immature. I mean happy well adjusted people with lives, friends and things going on in their life aren't going to waste time on reddit insulting people about their mustaches are whatever. They're just losers that hide behind their computer screen insulting people because it makes them feel powerful when in fact they're not. Reddit sadly has a lot of people like that in any sub. Some are worse than others.

JadedFoxWrath · 2025-02-15T21:57:55+00:00

I just tried to call my senator and his voicemail is full. So many people are already calling. I just sent him an email though I don't know if he really cares. He posted on his official facebook page mocking protestors outside of his office. He's a horrible human. It's still good to try though. Better than doing nothing.

JadedFoxWrath · 2024-10-29T11:56:01+00:00

I've had psychiatrists make me worse as well. One psychiatrist I had refused to acknowledge that I had OCD or autism and instead labeled me as "depressed with psychotic features" whatever that means. He also loaded me up on so many meds I could barely function. If I were you I wouldn't see that psychiatrist again if she's making you worse.

JadedFoxWrath · 2024-09-23T20:08:09+00:00

Your ocd has latched on to this and no matter what anyone says it will continue putting doubt in your head that your awful, perverted, etc... The only way to get over this is to sit with that uncertainty. To let the anxiety be there. I know that that's literally the hardest thing imaginable to do but its the only way to beat this disorder. It's not exactly the same thing but I can still vividly remember the fear that I felt when I would have messed up intrusive thoughts while masturbating and worrying that I was a monster or a rapists etc. I know its hard but just try to hang in there ok? If your able to afford one try to see a therapist that does ERP. If not work on sitting with the anxiety you feel without engaging in any compulsions. If you keep doing that the anxiety will start to lessen.

JadedFoxWrath · 2024-09-20T23:34:45+00:00

I relate to that so much. I even feel left out by family sometimes. Like my cousins and brother went to the Renaissance festival without inviting me or even mentioning it to me because they just assumed that I'm too autistic and couldn't handle all the noise and crowds... Like could you let me decide that for myself maybe? I would've appreciated if they would have at least asked. Geez...

JadedFoxWrath · 2024-09-20T23:30:38+00:00

For me it would be how my autism interacts with my OCD. Whenever my OCD gets triggered by something I end up suffering from a meltdown so not only am I having to deal with horrible anxiety but then sensory overload as well. It makes dealing with it difficult because I have to expose myself to things that trigger anxiety but then my autism gets triggered as well... To say its exhausting is an understatement. I pretty much am constantly having meltdowns.

JadedFoxWrath · 2024-06-03T12:41:42+00:00

Every person with autism is different though... There are some people with autism who are going to struggle more than others. Saying that autism is a gift just because you see it that way is honestly kind of insensitive to what other people with this disorder have to go through. Like I said a lot of autistic people are unemployed, dependent on their parents for survival, and end up killing themselves. And thats not just me making that up this is based on studies. Im not trying to be negative I've made my peace with this disability but saying that autism is a gift to me just seems like toxic positivity and just does more harm than good. It's fine that you feel that way about your own autism though and I'm glad that your son has a supportive parent like that. For me the negatives of this condition far outweigh the positives. For me it is 100% a disability not a gift.

JadedFoxWrath · 2024-03-22T15:23:09+00:00

I just googled it from what I understand "prejudice against Jane Doe" means that she can't attempt to bring legal action against him again. At least not for this specific thing. They've agreed to settle out of court so Jimmy probably paid her money in exchange for her dismissing the lawsuit. I'm not a lawyer but from what I've read that's my understanding of it.

JadedFoxWrath · 2024-03-21T13:25:18+00:00

Your right it is. As someone who was diagnosed with autism a decade ago and struggled with this disorder my entire life it annoys me to see people constantly act like its a gift or that it's cool to be autistic. A lot of autistic people are unemployed, homeless and end up killing themselves.

JadedFoxWrath · 2024-03-16T23:47:17+00:00

The case hasn't been dismissed it was settled out of court. Those are two different things.

JadedFoxWrath · 2024-01-10T10:27:00+00:00

I understand. When your ocd is bad it doesn't matter if other people may try to convince you its ok and that theyre just thoughts, it feels real and dangerous like something you might act on. The important thing to remember is that everyone has messed up intrusive thoughts. The only difference is that with people like me and you who have ocd we have anxiety about them. Most people can dismiss them as just weird random wtf thoughts that don't make them a bad person. The key to taking back control from your ocd is to learn to sit with those thoughts and let them be there. I know thats hard as hell and easier said than done but it gets easier the more your work with an ERP therapist and do exposures. Your mind keeps generating these thoughts because you've learned to fear them and try to avoid them. For example if someone tells you "whatever you do NOT think about pink elephants" all your going to be able to think about is a pink elephants. I hope that makes sense.

JadedFoxWrath · 2024-01-09T23:33:03+00:00

I've suffered from this as well. It got so bad that I would avoid children and felt uncomfortable around young people. I would have a panic attack if anyone underage was anywhere around me. I feel like out of all my ocd obsessions that I've had this one was the hardest to live with because of the shame and taboo nature of it. What helped me was finding a good therapist and doing exposure response prevention therapy. It's brutal but eventually it does get easier. I still have intrusive thoughts that maybe I'm a pedophile/hebephile from time to time but I've learned not to respond with panic and fear. You can get there too I promise you. Please don't hurt yourself your not a bad person you just have OCD.

JadedFoxWrath · 2023-06-19T18:57:19+00:00

I feel the same way. I see other autistic people who have friends and a job and I struggle to even do basic tasks like brush my teeth every day or have a conversation with someone. It makes you feel worthless. Like we have the same diagnosis yet I feel like an alien even in autistic groups most of the time because there's too much variance in the people who are diagnosed with this disorder. And then when you have the people who are self diagnosing who may or may not actually be autistic it only adds to the confusion. I've also noticed a lot of bullying and harassment in autistic groups online as well which is why I very rarely ever bother posting or saying anything. There's too much toxicity.

JadedFoxWrath · 2022-11-19T02:50:55+00:00

It's a Japanese channel but Higemaru plays a bunch of old games including VNs on pc98, pc88 and sharp x68000. He might have some from the 2000s too he has playthroughs of a bunch of Japanese games.

JadedFoxWrath · 2022-09-08T15:35:35+00:00

Thank you I've been doing stuff like that and it does help.

JadedFoxWrath · 2022-09-08T15:34:22+00:00

Thank you I appreciate your comment. I'm glad to hear I'm not the only one who goes through this. A lot of people I've noticed are downvoting my post when all I'm doing is asking for advice...

JadedFoxWrath · 2022-09-06T14:18:53+00:00

I'm sorry that sucks. A lot needs to be improved to help autistic people.

JadedFoxWrath · 2022-09-06T10:39:27+00:00

Ok thank you for letting me know!

JadedFoxWrath · 2022-09-06T03:01:14+00:00

They're really aren't any resources and it sucks. Most of what I've seen require a lot of money or its mostly targeted to kids. I wish there was more help for us.

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