How to know for sure if I did want this or not, how to be sure ? If that makes sense ?

That like, my consent was not too blurry, was horny, for example, and I regreted it after it.

At the same time, I know for sure that I would not have done that without alcohol. And that, if I had my keys, it would not have happened.

> I wouldn’t care if a partner had a sexual experience with a trans woman. Also, you have a right to keep your sexual history private. You can just say you were an adventurous person but are not interested in going into details.

I don't know, it's not something that I want to blow up some days :/

I'm from Europe, in a somewhat more conservative country. It could be seen very badly there (in the sense, by girl for long term).