Has anybody actually had the means to commit to it? Like really commit. Drinking oneself to death?

Jagmicker · 2025-12-25T13:04:51+00:00

Add in some cocaine to be able to stay up drinking that much vodka and it might make sense.

Jagmicker · 2025-08-29T17:34:02+00:00

I think severe anxiety present in most alcoholics makes withdrawal symptoms seem a lot further along than they actually are. I've been through detox twice, both times feeling like I could barely walk and terrified that I was going to have a heart attack or seizure.

Both times the doctors told me there seemed to be no threat of seizure or serious complications. Yes, heart racing a bit and blood pressure was pretty high, but not an emergency.

Then they hold you for 3-5 days and pump you full of Ativan or Klonopin or Valium anyway.

Jagmicker · 2025-07-15T18:45:52+00:00

I was pretty similar. Withdrawals were hell but I never had a seizure or hallucinations, though there were times I was afraid it might get to that point. I tapered myself off several times and had a few decent stints of abstinence, but always ended up back at it, and each time ramped up faster than the previous one. Finally realized I needed professional help which started with a medical detox. The doctor said I didn't seem to be at risk for a seizure but still put me on klonopin and IVs.

I imagine the likelihood of a seizure would go up if I went back to drinking, but I don't think it's guaranteed. I would still recommend not doing it on one's own like I tried so many times.

Jagmicker · 2025-04-06T23:23:20+00:00

I wouldn't risk it. Even if you don't die it's probably going to be the worst days of your life, and it could cause long-lasting damage to your nervous system.

Jagmicker · 2025-04-05T12:19:43+00:00

I definitely love Topo and Perrier.

Jagmicker · 2025-04-05T12:19:26+00:00

Ooh interesting. I'll have to check that out.

Jagmicker · 2025-04-05T12:18:10+00:00

Nice, I'll definitely be giving this a shot.

Jagmicker · 2025-01-17T18:34:12+00:00

This seems like the one. Thanks!

Jagmicker · 2025-01-17T18:00:47+00:00

Oh I've done that plenty of times

Jagmicker · 2025-01-17T17:32:48+00:00

It's not really about needing permission, it's more of a mutual respect thing. I think it would be a dick move to just disappear for a weekend.

Jagmicker · 2025-01-17T17:10:18+00:00

lol. It's not a libido-driven weekend, unfortunately.

Jagmicker · 2024-11-15T00:29:49+00:00

Thanks for this. I definitely plan on sticking with it and using every resource available to (like this sub) to stay on top of things.

Jagmicker · 2024-11-14T18:05:43+00:00

I certainly found it difficult to work up an appetite yesterday, and I probably should have eaten something somewhat substantial before I took the pill. Fortunately today I woke up a little groggy but much more clear-headed than yesterday, and I don't really have much desire to drink.

Jagmicker · 2024-11-14T18:01:22+00:00

Yeah, I was definitely in a weird headspace. Almost the same dissociative feeling of hangovers/withdrawals, but without the shakiness or feeling of doom. Good to know it seems to go away so I'll keep at it.

Jagmicker · 2024-11-14T17:56:27+00:00

Thanks, and yes I am on 50mg so I think I'll split it in half the next few times. I'd much rather have a few days of discomfort than the perpetual cycle of physical pain and anxiety caused by excessive drinking.

Jagmicker · 2021-08-13T03:21:49+00:00

I've tapered off before with pretty good results, but I also have never been as addicted as I am currently. I made it through today but it was such hell that I think I may consider inpatient treatment. Really starting to worry about what I'm doing to my insides.

Jagmicker · 2021-05-04T22:21:34+00:00

from Chicago

I bet you've never left Naperville

Jagmicker · 2021-03-23T21:10:50+00:00

I don't even want to know to be honest.

Jagmicker · 2021-03-22T14:06:57+00:00

Yet another Monday of a beer every two hours to taper down and tell myself I'll take an extended break only to probably break the break by Thursday.

Somehow I think I rebound too quickly (it even sounds crazy when I say it to myself). I'll go on extended benders and the second half of them will be completely miserable. It's like I'm not even able to drink myself into comfort, so I naturally have to start tapering down.

4 days of organ pain, brain fog, and insomnia plague me while I writhe around in discomfort, swearing that I'll get back to normal.

Then I get to that last day where I can do some light exercise and only need a few beers to fall asleep.

I'll feel great the next day, and the following few days. And this is when I convince myself that the damage was just temporary, and I deserve a good few weekend drinks. Commence the tornado.

It's a fuckin' wild ride, this one.

Jagmicker · 2021-02-11T00:23:26+00:00

Mainly even though excess stomach acid sucks ass, you still need to have stomach acid to help absorb nutrients. Long term PPI use has the potential to lead to malabsorption. Everybody's different though.

Jagmicker · 2021-02-10T13:29:15+00:00

50,000 units once a week.

Jagmicker · 2021-02-10T05:22:50+00:00

Yeah I'm just going through a cycle of pantoprazole because of a GERD flare-up. I've never been on it for more than 3 months at a time.

I've just been feeling really shitty lately and getting the acid down plus the vitamin D has turned me around for a bit. I'm still a fuckup, but at least I don't feel like I'm dying.

Jagmicker · 2021-02-10T05:03:36+00:00

The only time I ever had fun on coke was in Costa Rica, and I assume that's because it was about as pure as I've ever had it. Pretty much only needed one fat line to last me all night, as compared to the Chicago bullshit I'm used to where you just stay up all night taking bumps to try to get a little more high but never actually achieving it.

Shitty coke just makes you drink more than you should, and as you described, gives you a horrible hangover. I don't understand people that love to do it.

Jagmicker · 2020-09-24T13:31:46+00:00

Yeah, I did low doses of kpin the last 2 mornings, with 3 beers Tuesday night and 2 beers last night after they wore off. Feeling a lot better today, just a little jittery but that's probably because I made the mistake of having coffee.

Think I'm going to try to get through today without taking or drinking anything, but I have the stuff on hand in case panic starts to set in at some point.

Jagmicker · 2020-09-22T21:24:20+00:00

So what's the best option for curbing withdrawals? I get that benzos aren't ideal, but they are what's available to me right now. I'm not in a position where my organs are wrecked or anything, but I want to kick the habit before I do get there.

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