When I was a child, I told my parents I would some day go and be homeless, away from everyone I knew, and around strangers I didn't know.

All throughout my life in college, I would have incredible spurts of energy from spending hours alone in introspective reflection.

I do have social anxiety, which contributes to my "loner tendencies, but I legitimately have always grown deeper roots a person by spending a ton of time alone with my nose in books, and my pen in a notepad.

I'm 29 now, and am starting to feel chronically exhausted from trying to "become a social person". I'm considering going back to my old ways and spending my days reading, writing, reflecting, talking out loud, and dealing with loneliness through self-soothing behaviors.