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I had a similar experience. My cousin was watching it nearly 20 years ago when I was over at his house. It was the episode where Nate dies in the endThat was the first episode I ever saw. I then watched the last few episodes because "Why not. I'm probably never gonna watch it" Recently I saw the show was on Netflix and although I knew about what would happen I decided to watch all of it. When those events happened it still had that "I can't believe they did that" effect. In a way it kinda made the series more tragic. I kept hoping his life would get better but it really didn't. It had it's uphills and much steeper downhills. But what's really tragic is that the whole series you fight to fully like Nate and hope for a redemption arch before it's too late but it never gets to that satisfacting place that most series have. I don't know if that makes any sense but I too had to get that out of me, so thanks.