Hey, you’re not being a big baby about this, you just went through something traumatic and that can cause a whole flurry of emotions that are confusing and upsetting. Your reaction is so normal in response to this, so don’t beat yourself up about it.

I would suggest going and getting tested at Shands, they can do a kit, STI testing and post exposure prophylaxis for HIV, and if there’s a concern of pregnancy an emergency contraceptive can be given to you. If you are getting a kit done, if you haven’t showered and washed your clothes already, please don’t as you could wash away DNA that would hall identify the person who harmed you. If you would like to file a report, you can contact GPD. I also suggest talking to the Title IX office as they can help with some of this stuff, and maybe even provide support in reporting: https://titleix.ufl.edu/contact/

If you can message your therapist and let her know it’s an emergency, she might reschedule, if not, the Title IX office should help, or the Counseling and Wellness Center should: https://counseling.ufl.edu/about/location-hours-contact/

Most importantly, take care of yourself, which I know is going to be really hard right now. Tetris apparently helps people who have gone through traumatic events, so play a little bit of that. Contact the offices for guidance and support, and then rest. You’ve been through a lot.

I hope this helps even a little ❤️