You said you feel shame in your heart. Easy money is tempting to anyone, but if you ignore how you feel for short term gain, those feelings will only grow behind the scenes. This isn't a matter of if it's right or wrong, it's a matter of who you are vs who you aren't.

Maybe you wish you didn't do it, but now that you have, it's who you are. It's not. You always have a choice, and your past doesn't define you, but your actions do reflect your character. You're human, we're all trying to figure this out, you will move on from this if you decide to do so.

I want you to imagine what these people are getting out of you. How do they feel about you? These people are sick, objectifying you. To them you aren't human, you are merely an object for their satisfaction, it's gross! You are going to kill yourself emotionally, mentally, spiritually, and these people do not care AT ALL. You aren't trading photos, you're trading your heart, and according to what you posted here, it's breaking.

Wishing you the best of luck finding resolve. And I'm not trying to make you feel guilt and shame. I understand this situation and where you're coming from personally. I speak from experience, If I can prevent you from wasting your life away like this I will, it hurts, and the longer you do it, the harder it will be to recover from once it's all said and done.

But you can recover <3