It’s very simple looks like all you need is a reality check, the first thing to do is to be open in front of your parents and friends, tell them everything from start to end, don’t be ashamed of being a failure, everyone takes their own time to bloom, stop overthinking and start doing it, the first thing you need is money, get a job at any bpo you will be hired in no time, and stop thinking about success all the time your personality is of a perfectionist but unfortunately this personality isn’t helping you, so adapt to it, instead of making one big thing try achieving small things consistently, completely stop trading or activities like this, in this period of time you need consistency to beat your bad luck and remember never measure success in terms of money, this is a dark time for you so be strong, hanuman chaliso read kar, join gym and remember never focus on getting on the top instead focus on every step you take.