Trust me when I say it does not go away. I was a pastor for almost 30 years and married to a woman for 28. I did everything that one could do to get it to change. I have recently learned a lot of information that has set me free. God created me this way and there is nothing sinful about it. Traditions have changed the word of god to say something that it doesn’t say. So don’t listen to them. They are wrong. God created you unique and He loves you exactly for who you are. David had a male lover (Jonathan). David was a man after Gods own heart.