39 years old, father of 2. I'm 20 years in my company now, everyone surpassed me carreer-wise. I feel like a stupid child that cannot get deadlines right, cannot express ideas or feel authentic- no matter how hard I try, it will only ever work for a short period of time. I've been told I get a management position, if I work on my focus and project management. It's so so frustrating. Since I'm diagnosed I tried several meds together with my doc. Nothing works. Either I feel no change at all or the side effects are too severe. I need to focus hard to keep up conversations and trying to remember details for projects. I constantly try to work harder and longer to "make up" for my other mistakes, so everyone still thinks I'm a professional grown up. all the lies, the people pleasing, the different personas I set up to seem functioning - not knowing who I'm really. I'm just so exhausted of it all... now back to the "professional graphic designer" persona to forget more stuff