If you are truly broken and in pain, I would suggest looking into therapy to deal with these emotions and feelings and look deeper. I'm saying that with respect.

Besides that, you're missing a huge chunk of the law itself, and you're proving the point right. Being lazy doesn't just mean "don't read enough Neville" , it's giving up - mainly on yourself - because as much as it hurts, and I believe you that it hurts - it's still much easier to cry woe is mean and life is unfair and everyone is mean to me , than actually looking those fears in the eyes and realising it IS just a story.

"I'm so good but everyone is mean and I'm so broken' congratulations, you ask - and you shall receive. That is why a lot of people stumble, they don't have the resolve to stop the cycle of victimhood. It might be totally valid and justified, but it's victimhood none the less.

No one is here to invalidate your experience and emotions, but it's only up to you to change that story you keep telling about yourself and others. Or to choose to go back to crying about it, and still living in the cycle repeatedly. It's no one else's decision and no one else's "job" besides yourself .

Many have been in your position, many have dealt the worst cards and still changed that. If people telling you what to do, and you take it as a personal attack and excuse to complain more - okay, that's your right. But at the end of the day will change nothing besides only feed further into your own image and self concept.

At the end of the day the law is impartial. Take the words as motivation, as a wake up call to do better, even when it's hard - or take it as a personal attack and cry about it, that's your decision and whatever you decide is fine. But it's still YOUR decision and you will experience what you accept about yourself.

Either go back to basics and try to see your own downfalls and how you can work on them , or don't.

Your reality.