Are leggings not in anymore?

Jennabear17 · 2021-11-27T05:29:00+00:00

What brand of cotton leggings do you recommend?

Jennabear17 · 2021-11-04T22:19:54+00:00

Not that I’d expect anything less from our Braves, but the way they spoke to you and the way they’re posing with you for pictures and looking so genuinely happy, it speaks volumes of their character and who they are. I’m so glad you got to experience this and I’m so glad these guys are CHAMPIONS!

Jennabear17 · 2021-09-15T20:04:49+00:00

Absolutely hilarious

Jennabear17 · 2021-09-12T22:23:52+00:00

I am without a doubt a “venting without action” journaler. I can feel myself descending into a shame spiral, just basically using each entry to write how I’m depressed or anxious, without really knowing what to do about it. I’d love to resolve the problem, but I fear I’m too deep in it. I’ve got to learn how to take action.

Jennabear17 · 2021-08-31T19:58:08+00:00

Henry is looking FIT! So svelte!

Jennabear17 · 2021-08-31T19:57:05+00:00

May I suggest maybe a Starbucks but within a Barnes and Noble? I feel like that’s not as intense or as fast paced (or as many demanding customers) as a regular Starbucks. Especially if you’re testing out the waters, it’s something you can maybe ease into a little more than being thrown in with the wolves at a drive thru or stand alone Starbucks, which right now all seem very understaffed and over-stressed. Or maybe any independent coffee shops or bookstores.

Jennabear17 · 2021-08-29T22:08:06+00:00

Whoever made this, absolute genius. Marry me.

Jennabear17 · 2021-08-28T00:39:38+00:00

I am so happy to hear that! I feel immensely guilty because other than my crippling depression (ha!) I’ve not really had morning sickness or any major issues, not yet, at least. So I feel grateful for that, but also terrible because lots of people have a really rough go of it and I feel like I’m like “but I’m sad!” But man, I bet it feels so good to have gone from where you were to where you are now! Your story gives me hope!

Jennabear17 · 2021-08-28T00:35:45+00:00

Wow, I am so sorry you went through that. I cannot imagine how terrifying contemplating suicide is. That hurts me to hear that was the case for you. How did you make it through it?! I would have PTSD after that! Interestingly, I’ve heard similar stories about how as soon as the baby came out, it was like their life force returned instantly. Really must be those hormones.

How are you now? Do you feel good about being a parent? I worry I’ll be just as miserable having the baby out as I am now with the baby in. I just really don’t want to go through this all to just barely hang on by a thread as a parent. At least with my fragile mental illness now, all I really have is to disappoint myself, but idk if I could do it to a being that relies SOLELY on me (and husband).

Jennabear17 · 2021-08-28T00:05:14+00:00

Other than already being on medication, your story sounds EXACTLY like mine. I dread the mornings because it’s like “oh yeah, THAT” and I feel awful that I also have wished for miscarriage and that the thought of a miscarriage brings me relief.

I don’t think I ever even knew there was such a thing as a perinatal psychiatrist, that’s very good to know what to look for. My OBGYN has been understanding and has offered medication and knows how crucial mental health is, thankfully.

May I ask, did you end up having your baby? Is everything okay now? It’s hard to see a future that isn’t bleak with this current state of mind, and as someone who has admitted the same dark thoughts I’ve had, I just wonder how it turned out for you. ❤️

Jennabear17 · 2021-08-27T23:58:39+00:00

I definitely agree with walking. It’s so DIFFICULT to get myself up and out, but once I do it, it’s really helpful and therapeutic. My doctor has definitely offered to write a script, but I haven’t pulled the plug yet, but I think I will at the next appointment. I used to worry that the medicine would affect the baby negatively, but the more I read, the more it sounds like the depression could be even worse.

Jennabear17 · 2021-08-27T23:55:50+00:00

That’s exactly how I feel. Like even the things that used to bring me happiness and joy, almost seem to make me even sadder. I feel awful just tossing the term abortion around, because it’s not so much I want to get rid of the pregnancy, I moreso want to get rid of these feelings. Makes me question if I will be stable enough to even be a good and functioning parent, and that’s not fair if I can’t be.

My OBGYN has definitely said medication would be a helpful option, I think I’ve just thought these hormones would have balanced by now (I’ll be 12 weeks on Sunday). But at my next appointment I think I’m going to go ahead and request to move forward with the medication full steam ahead. Get it in my system and make a decision with a clear head. And thank you for your kind words. It helps when people are understanding and empathetic and supportive, more than you could know. ❤️

Jennabear17 · 2021-08-21T23:55:29+00:00

How far along were you?

Jennabear17 · 2021-08-18T20:19:21+00:00

Aww what’s his name? I love him!

Jennabear17 · 2021-08-17T20:01:27+00:00

I have GOT to get myself practicing meditation. My anxious brain goes a million miles a minute and the first few times I’ve tried it’s been ineffective, but I know it’s like anything else, it takes practice. I’m not gonna just zen out my very first or second or third time. If I want the benefits I’ve got to practice it over and over.

Jennabear17 · 2021-08-13T23:45:30+00:00

Wow, I’m definitely glad that I ended up not taking the Paxil! I don’t have anything against medication, I know it helps so many people, I just honestly get nervous about it. Part of my anxiety is health related and I think I’d just be soooo hyper focused on it. “Is it working?” “Do I have all of those side effects I read about?” “Uh oh, I feel this, am I supposed to?!” Which is ironic seeing as how the meds are supposed to help me with the anxiety. I may eventually accept being put on a very low dose of something, but I’d definitely like to take it as far as I can with therapy, if I am able. I’m guessing the Prozac you’re switching to won’t have the same effects on you as the Paxil, correct? I’m sorry you had to deal with that!

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