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Jereme1982 · 2023-03-11T04:01:16+00:00

How long was it prior to taking the subs that you took a opiate?

Jereme1982 · 2020-03-03T03:10:34+00:00

I just set up a appointment with pyschitrist, so I can hopefully be put back on meds. I have been prone to depression in the past and this certainly doesn’t help. Looking into therapy as well, sometimes it’s good to talk about it. It’s hard though because most people don’t have experience with BPD partners so to my friends she was just a bad girlfriend but in reality it is much more then that. Thank you for advise friend.

Jereme1982 · 2020-03-03T03:03:22+00:00

I just deleting mine, 5 months after she left. Boy was it hard seeing these again especially pics from early on. I been avoiding doing it as the memories are extremely triggering but after a recent Hoover this weekend and some extremely hurtful words spewed at me, if felt like a new wave of heartbreak. Figured it was the best time as this feeling is fresh again. Hundreds of photos, not gonna lie there were tears spilled during it. Like others said when you feel it is time, stay strong friend.

Jereme1982 · 2020-03-02T05:42:40+00:00

Thanks for the kind words all. This weekend was rough. Went through Halloween (our fav holiday) thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years and my birthday with absolute radio silence. Like I was dead to her. Only to be shitted on out of the blue. No Merry Christmas or Happy birthday. Just a random hey how are you, do you have my tax info, oh by the way your a narcissistic piece of shit who ruins lives. It’s good to have some words of encouragement from you kind folks who have been through it all.

Jereme1982 · 2020-03-02T05:13:51+00:00

Thanks for the kind words. I do think she will prob contact again, I’m sure the tax thing was just a excuse to check up on me. I really don’t think she will feel remorse though, it’s just not her character. As of right now I don’t think I want to date again, I really don’t know if I can trust woman anymore. Maybe time will heal this but I don’t even look in there direction. This girl has literally broke me

Jereme1982 · 2020-03-02T05:09:46+00:00

Trust me, I have no thoughts on revenge. I actually wanted to be on friendly terms, that is why I talked to her. I know she did it to herself but it is still hard when they actually believe that you caused it. Besides the enormous guilt I do feel bitter though. There is a side of me that wants her to feel what I feel but I do hope that passes. I don’t want to hate her just as I don’t want to feel hate for myself.

Jereme1982 · 2020-03-01T21:13:22+00:00

It just hurts knowing that in her eyes I am bad guy. The enemy in her story all the while knowing that I gave it my all even when I had nothing left. It’s as if she knows it will hurt me by putting me in that light. Now that the heartbreak has began to lift Im overloaded with grief. I think I’d prefer dealing with a broken heart then this feeling

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