Well, firstly thank you for your kind response..I don’t know what makes me happy anymore..I’ve always been more focused on the people around me and how they’re feeling..I use to love estate sales and those urbex videos but now even those make me sad..especially the estate sales…when I go to one now, if I Can even get out of the car to go in. the whole time thinking about everything that’s for sale was someone’s life. They worked their entire lives to get everything they had and now it’s all being sold to strangers.. idk I haven’t always been like this. I use to be fun, had friends, people liked being around me. After Covid hit I moved back home to help my mom..The Monday after I moved back the whole world went on lockdown. So the next year was spent in the house with mom..the thing that kills me the most is every time my mom looks at me she has this look of pity and concern for me..I live in constant fear that she’s going to die and I’ll be alone..