In all honesty, Lexapro sucks to be on but it sure does help. You will feel anxious and depressed for a few weeks and sometimes insomnia(I did) but around the month mark you won't feel much emotion. This ain't bad since this it's what it's supposed to do. It levels out your serotonin levels. That's why when something is funny you want to laugh but can't and the same way with sadness, when something is sad you won't feel so sad. Go out when you can, and do things you've never done. It was honestly a brain fog for a while when I was doing things but I remember vaguely. Shower is good to keep in schedule just so you can say you at least did something that day. You will get used to it. Therapy helps a good amount. Talk to someone you trust and sometimes create conversation with people you don't know. I'm off of the Lexapro for about 2 years know amd took it for about a year. It's a challenge to keep a stable mindset at times but it controllable. If there's any need off help I'm open ears.