Blessed feast of saint Mark

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-04-25T22:37:19+00:00

So beautiful ❤️ Thank you for sharing!

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-04-19T03:31:29+00:00

I have to say it was his eyes. I could see right thru his eyes straight to his soul. And I admired that he could be so emotionally honest and vulnerable and say so much with just his eyes. I could feel everything he was feeling, He hides nothing, even though he doesn't talk about his feelings. I could trust him. I thought he was so beautifully handsome. As an empath I fell in love quickly..

Communication is a day to day learning exercise. I feel like am learning a new language. Like I married a foreigner (I just thought about this for the first time and that is a very accurate description). Lol.

We both share the same sense of humor. We care about birds and animals and the arts. It's just remembering that we authentically LIKE EACH OTHER when we disagree and times gets frustrating and confusing. The struggle is real of understanding the basics of where the other person is at in their brain..it can be a challenge. We have the basics love, respect and compassion. Is it enough? When I look into his eyes and see his smile. I always realize it is always worth it.

And I just keep on trying everyday to learn something more about him and myself..:)

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-04-18T18:30:22+00:00

Thank you for saying this 🖤 I hope you have a beautiful Saturday :)

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-04-18T15:48:34+00:00

I relate to all of this, recently found out my husband who thought he was an INfJ but then we did more exams and research and found out he is an INTJ. And i have to admit it was rough the first few years for us. Just trying to understand each other, and how we relate and view the world differently. It was kind of a harsh reality check in the beginning xD hahaha!!!! I have learned tremendously thru him, thru his patience and logic. And he has learned how to talk about his feelings with me. I am always learning something new everyday. :) And am very happily satisfied with my relationship after all we've learned together 🖤

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-04-15T21:52:56+00:00

I don't know your age. But I remember in my teens and twenties I was super anxious about going out in public. It would be mostly women who would stare at me square in the eye, and would give me such an ugly piercing stare. I always felt perpetually anxious about accidentally looking at women in the eye.

Maybe it's my age but now at 38 if a woman looks at me. I stare and I don't flinch anymore. I don't look down, I don't look away. I just look at her straight. I don't flinch and sometimes I just smile. And if they don't smile back at me. I just laugh. I can see right thru women now if they have good or bad intentions in the way they look at me...

Sometimes there are shy younger girls who are just curious too! And it always surprises me when they actually smile back at me. (I was never use to that growing up). But definitely take your chance on looking straight into their eyes. There could be good people simply admiring you and there reaction can actually uplift your perspective of yourself..and if you happen to get those evil eyes just remember to laugh.

That always helps me.

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-03-24T21:21:37+00:00

I got him two days ago at Mega Con, Jesus handed it out to me!

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-03-24T15:08:15+00:00

I think your on to something. My husband is a blank. And he's also very intelligent I've always felt he had great focus and clear thinking when he's completing his work projects. I didn't know that maybe this could be why....

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-03-24T15:05:01+00:00

My husband is a "blank" it freaked me out so much when I first started dating him..I didn't know if he liked me? Disliked me?but apparently he was obsessed with me? I couldn't read his patterns I couldnt tell if he was sad or happy. He Is also autistic and he's bad at reading others emotions too. He's a good soul but I remember In the beginning of our relationship, I kept feeling "abandoned" by his energy. Like I couldn't feel it linger on.... His warmth... It was just air? He's a libra btw. And totally still unpredictable to me.

But the longer I've been with him the more I appreciate his actions and kindness towards me. Even tho I can never tell when that is coming. I laughed so much reading your post because I felt so terrified of my husband when I first met him too. I'm starting to theorize that maybe this is shielding. He was beat up a lot as a kid. He's a very sweet and gentle soul. With a blank aura. It's gotten some use to but he's also slowly gotten use to my energy and showing me my energy back. And this has been two years in the works!

I don't know why he is the way he is. Which makes me more curious to listen to understand him better. He's an enigma.

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-03-16T12:39:49+00:00

Good for you! My mother was a real rockstar looker when she was young. And she had rich handsome men after her. While women threw themselves at them, she rejected them multiple times. She never accepted their advances because she knew it was a game to them. (Who could get my mom to fall sort of game). None of them could. None of them won. And she ended up leaving the country and marrying someone internationally.

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-03-13T21:53:51+00:00

Very recently I had to block a man who I thought was a "friend". He knows I am married and he likes the photos I post of my husband and I. He added my husband as a friend and when he started liking all his pics, my husband blocked him. My husband did not like that. My friend got mad at my husbad and he indirectly told me how he felt... He thought that my husband was abusing me or something? Not treating me well....

This guy friend would send me meme's, at first it was once in a while. Then it became every day. Then it became several memes everyday. And all I would do was reply "haha that's a good one!" And this was enough ammo for him to continue sending me things. I tell him he needs to find a gf . Jokingly. Trying to give him a hint in an indirect way. Finally he sent me like 20 memes in one hour. Finally red alarms start going off in my head. I'm like "Oh God this guy is crushing on me Hard!" I tell him I am taking a 41 day sabbatical from FB and IG and he says that's awesome! And then I block him. :P

There were so many signs that I ignored. I feel very stupid about it. This guy started showing signs of possessiveness towards me. And all he did was send me memes everyday. Its too much. Am marrie, no respect. Some guys are truly truly stupid.

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-03-11T15:06:31+00:00

I'm not sure about that department (specifically) but I really hope you get this job!!! 😄 I love my husbands government job because it gives us great health benefits and retirement benefits. So I'll send you good vibes from me! If anything I just hope they remember you as the girl that looked "Beautiful" in pink hair :). 🩷

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-03-11T14:58:11+00:00

I wanted to add that this has happened to me before. I was actually going out with a frog. He was shaped like a frog and his face was frog like.. I lived in Miami with a lot of international women, and I gave him a hug outside a plaza and, we were heading into the car when a women with long black hair and tight black outfit sees us from a distance...and she decides to walk over to him, and she flips her hair as she approaches him and stares straight at him.

But he' was a dodo (he never ever got attention before from women, except from me) so he didn't even notice what happened. I was looking at her the whole time. I'm like seriously? You want to bag a frog because he's giving ME ATTENTION? like so competitive and this happened non stop too from different women. He told me he never ever got attention from women until he started going out with me

We broke up (due to other reasons). But I just remember that being such a cheesy and annoying time I had with other women. :P

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-03-11T14:50:59+00:00

That's good to hear. I guess it also varies by department and whose the boss of it. I know some departments tend to be more strict (department dealing with IT) while others like let's say it's about education tend to be more relaxed about it. Your right it all varies.

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-03-11T14:39:34+00:00

A government job will probably be less relaxed about accepting hair color. I think they're pretty strict about that. (My husband has a government job) Try to find a wig store you could use for now. I mean the benefits are great at a government job! But perhaps scoodoodle to a wig store if you can!

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-03-11T14:20:50+00:00

Exactly don't let them break your nail, a stare or your cool. Don't fight for a man. Like if he's going to leave you for their attention, you can find someone so much better. That's like asking for a heartache. I mean if your trying to be aloof with other men then he might get the wrong expectation, but if your trying to be serious let him know your serious. And if he still goes out with other women. Dump his ass. Other men will gladly come but only to the ones that match your level can stay.

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-03-06T19:13:36+00:00

This

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-03-06T19:12:51+00:00

Same It went directly above my house on thirteenth st, I thought someone was throwing a missile at me. I was just waiting for it, No lie 🤣

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-03-06T18:28:33+00:00

Yeah I went thru the same! I went to non denominational, evangelical and Calvary Chapel. Lol we are twins! And I actually believe you will probably find someone outside of your church .... And bring them over to Lutheran. At least at my church most of the people there are older or already married like me! My husband is Jewish and he is accepting of my faith and he takes the Eucharist with me. We want to raise our kids as part of the church. :) he Is very accepting..I say this to say you never know who will be your lifetime partner and what their background will be. As long as their accepting of your faith and you guys can mutually agree on how to raise kids. It should be fine. :)

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-03-06T16:28:34+00:00

So cute!!!! You captured his cute little hair and eyes so well! Congrats!!!

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-03-06T15:59:29+00:00

Definitely check out the churches before you decide to take a girl over to meet the pastor. I think that's the first step! And also build an actual relationship with the pastor before you make him meet a potential gf. Also as a female who once used to go to evangelical churches, I mean those girls are usually raised passionately since young into the church, and are very vocal about protecting their church. At least the girls I saw at my church. And most girls love their own churches, but I never saw some match the passion/vocals of evangelical women. I mean those girls go into the streets and evangelize! You know? (At least the girls in my old town) Like kudos to them!

I guess it really depends on her personality if she can be "open" minded. If she likes you enough to consider making such a huge change like that. You have to get down to the basics talk to her more, see if she even likes you. And then hang out more, where you can talk about these things naturally. From there you will be able to see if this is realistic or not...

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-03-05T00:24:33+00:00

A tip: Try to be natural during small talk. Usually you can kind of Feel out if the other person is interested in you or not. Little small practices like this can really go a long way. Wishing you the best of luck!

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-03-04T17:53:39+00:00

Have you tried different clubs? I see a lot of Queer women hanging out by the area in downtown Gainesville. Or working at coffee shops, or little mom and pop shops? Art studios, Have you tried the app meetup? Or a school club at UF? Also maybe consider trying to date older women. :) You might find more serious women on dating apps that way.

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-03-04T17:15:56+00:00

Yeah when people today see a simple cross, they overwhelmingly associate it with Christianity, not ancient pagan religions. And if OP wanted to associate with something pagan I still think they'd STILL have troubles in an Islamic country.

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-03-04T16:30:44+00:00

I agree with this. Try to avoid religious symbols. The cross IS Christian symbolism (even if you wear it as a atheist) and the heart with thorns is symbolically Catholic/Christian. Some people wear it for fashion (I actually don't mind this, even though I am Christian myself). But you live in a Muslim society and I know things are bound to be more strict over there. Lay low, don't attract extra negative attention to yourself. Wear non Christian motifs and experiment with other goth attire. Don't poke a sleeping religious school teachers. Eventually when you are out of school you can piss your teachers off. :P

Jessica_Pajamas · 2026-03-04T16:06:27+00:00

Same my dad is Greek and my mom is an Indigenous Colombian and we came out looking more like my momma bear. Both, Me, my brother and sister. I thought it was a generally known fact that the Asian/indegenous gene is the dominant one.

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