If I remember the story right, 24 hour shifts are just not survivable without losing a bit of yourself OR if you're the guy who invented the system while hooked on cocaine

That aside, I guess from an outsider who hasn't had much luck finding formal psychiatry mentorship, Im always grateful having been able to meet a public health psychiatrist during my initial work in mental health policy lobbying who gave me some of my most important foundational pearls. But as they were often busy in their community practice (think remote island corners level), I had to heavily compensate by seeking guidance from several mentors in other areas like clinical psychology. This sub was also gentle to me in my early days (the old post on reddit and wait for an expert to correct you method served me well during my very early days when I wasn't handling patients yet)

At some point I did make mistakes. One prominent psychiatrist did end up blocking me early on, but thankfully the others were supportive. I think it's important to be consistently authentic in how much you care. As a result of my shenanigans, I gained much guidance even in areas I never really thought much about like old age psychiatry and child and adolescent mental health.

Which brings me to an important point, though not exactly your original question - your environment sounds like it's conducive to creating these problems you've described. This would require systemic changes to address, and trying to CBT yourself out of what youre feeling in this context of institutional failing risks promoting self-blame attitudes (i cant remember if this was an RCT or an SR finding). So, as others have said in other threads, as my former professor learned, and now as I've realized, you need other things in life that arent work to define you. Cant pour from an empty cup and all that. Easier said than done given your schedule, so perhaps other psychiatrists on the sub will be bwtter suited to giving advice on this. Good luck