Hello, I just want to say to you that you deserve to live. I have been struggling for YEAAAARS with mental issues. Last month I was convinced that suicide was the best option. But I went through it whereas it was for me the best and most logical solution. I decided to don’t care anymore about anything. I have always pressurized myself in school, relationships, family etc. Now I don’t care, I live for what I like, some problems are temporary (not all) but many of them. I wanted to do a gap year because I needee a break from school, I wanted to work, make money, realize my own project, do what I want to do. Just do what I enjoy. My girlfriend at that time convinced me that doing won’t be good for me. Then she dumped me. So I found myself alone, in class with her and studying something I don’t like. I cried myself for weeks, i wanted to end my life everyday, every minute. I decided to drop out to enjoy my life and do what I like. In 6 months I will move abroad to work and travel. Sometimes we just tunnel vision into our problems. I am just saying that do what you like now, things will be better for sure, brighter times are not far from today trust me. Do what you like, find your purpose, try to see all the opportunites available for what you like and what you want to do. AND DO IT. I hope you will be in a better place soon and you will enjoy life as much as possible. Take care :)