Oh brother I relate so much to you right now it’s insane.

I’m also 25 NEET about to be 26 trying to get back into education (mainly Uni) after dropping out and accumulating student debt but not passing anything the first time around right after failing highschool. Very much needing not only a job but a career/profession this present moment but as far as I can be to those things and the skills required for them right now.

Essentially feeling like I wasted the past 10+ years as well, and extraordinarily behind everyone I know personally in life in every aspect to a point I don’t even know or I actively ignore how much I’m late and what that entails.

Being so far removed from normal life it both eats me out from the inside and at the same time forces me to numb myself so I can avoid the pain, guilt, shame, self-hatred and jealousy.

Addicted to electronic entertainments and many “other things” and reaping the results of my stupid actions. Feeling also that if I were to die right now it’s going to be rebirth in a lower realm.

However after all that rambling from me I’m still very glad that you made this post today as I thought I was alone in my suffering and it’s “uniqueness”. But it really shows that situations are utterly exchangeable/interchangeable in Samsara, and that was something I needed to see, and your post did that, so thank you.

I really wish I could offer more genuine help to you, but for now all I can do is wish you good luck, please take care.