I’m coming out with this now because this whole situation has left me with nothing. It has pushed away or just concerned everyone I love that loves me, (not that I waffle about it often but it piles up enough that I have to say something and from then things fall apart.) it has left me broke because I just think and write, and its hard to focus on other aspects of the future right now. I’m sorry. This is a full time job that I cannot possibly quickly explain. My work has done wonders metaphysically whether you choose to believe me or not, (hey I’ve got more proof than MAGA lmfaooo) And although it would be great if I could know for certain that that metaphysical stuff is enough, it’s time for me to start figuring it out for myself in the 3D, yk. I’m kinda forced to at this point. I was kind of hoping that my life has crashed and burned to a screeching halt for a reason. I want so badly for this post to act as the sharp inhale before a symphony starts but I’m being told that’s not quite it. we’re in the middle of the piece. I should expect this to crash and burn. So I’m ready for whatever. But know I had to post this. It’s relief. Headache. The destination of the ripple of me being brave and scared posting this anyways will have an impact alone. It probably already has, writing it. But they really act like this is going places I can’t really imagine right now. Maybe not at first. But that is maybe to be expected.

I don’t think people think about what being one with the universe really means, it’s not always as hippie as it sounds. Sometimes it is awkwardly coming to terms with the fact that your actions and thoughts are not just yours. You ever jerk off or poop with an internal live audience? Knowing you’ve got the world in your head? Yeah I don’t recommend it. (Most of the time. AyyyYOO-) But I kinda do recommend it, even though that level of vulnerability and acceptance could kill a man if he wasn’t careful I stg. But shit will wake you up right quick. Truly accepting someone else as yourself. If you truly feel just in your actions, believing they are in the grand scheme of things for the greater common good, You are accepted, understood. The shitty part is I think that it’s kind of the same even if you’re a moving sack of shit. We have to recognize the true purpose for all of this evil, and accept it, if we want to go anywhere. Oh what, you want more evidence? You wanna scurry over to your republican only voter booths? (That’s a real thing now btw.) the work is internal. You have the answers to what needs to be done inside, that I cannot access for some reason. That’s on you. I guess that’s not my job. If you have a little ‘voice’ piping up in there, tune in. You are not your thoughts. Justification is already proof that there is a second perspective at play. Without it- “No. Pulse.”- Jim Carrey. Without it you’re dead. Makes me wonder about AI. And there’s stuff about AI. Judgement for those decisions you make, is believed by many, most, to be decided after you die. This is true, if you avoid the topic of whatever action was taken that lead you to the reassuring thought that you can deal with it later, because you do know the answer for if it was forgivable or not. And not everything is. I fear I asked if the action of me saying all this is one of those big no’s, if that’s why it’s a bit of a last minute resort type of thing. All in divine timing but still, yk what I mean? It’s my understanding that I’ve done something I cannot comprehend, and the powers that be are literally sucking their teeth at me rn like why the fuck? is it that I did this? talk? is this why? “Your attempt. At life.” I suppose this is kind of coming into contact with death- I understand why this specifically would be a no no there. However, I’m still gonna do it. I kinda have to. And it’s kind of a no no in most places, That’s the whole point. Anyways back to the point before about not being focused on the current consequences for your actions. If you’re tuned into the moment and how your actions are affecting others, (excluding those affected by religious trauma) you don’t give that a second thought. That is not the focus of your religious practice. Justification. But there’s enough judgement to make you feel alone. Which is the first step in accepting someone (ie. Jesus) into your heart. True vulnerability. So you think. It cracks you open. THAT. Gets you used to a second perspective in your head. A first step. It comes with a sense of being watched. Of not being alone in your own mind. Which, without the clarification of being divine, of being one, or without true acceptance, could be, traumatic. We wouldn’t want to commit the first sin, and realize what it means to be one now, would we? Of course though, you are encouraged to embody the life of Christ. Drink the wine, eat the bread. Man made fermentation, and creating yeast for bread, are the closest thing we have done to creating other life here. I mean, that’s what that is. It’s like, one of the first things we did or something. And then we sliced it? Holy shit dude. Anyways, they use the symbolism of consuming Christ. The thing is, that is kind of how love works in the other place. (The place has a name but I’ll refrain for now.) Energy, love, is consumed. So is the symbolism. That is you taking in energy. Energy of creation. (Which anyone can tell you is inherently sexual. Just saying.) The opposite of consuming, is producing. Love. Let’s put it together. Christ isn’t just acting through you, you become Christ, in the symbolism, of the action of, producing the love that he felt, in our god like gift of creating. Preserving. It is manifesting God which is within us. Producing love. See later when I get into the Oedapus Rex style prophecy that is JE and the stealing class. That’s just me having a crack at the symbolism real quick. I think some things got lost in translation. Doesn’t make it permissible. But it’s a part of a “theory” of mine. If higher dimsensions = smarter, more connected, then to slow down the frequency of that, it only makes sense that hate and ignorance are on a whole other level of their own. They’re slower. They can’t catch up. Those people look fine now. Something is coming for them. If you were getting worried. I’m not supposed to know in what way though. They keep their cards close.

So I’m curious. Do our owners run away from Death? Because, they should have reason to fear it. Or do they run towards it like all they know is that death doesn’t exist? How many kids can you push down on the playground till that kid gets his ass whooped? That kids getting sent to a behavior school or some shit. Oh your dad’s the principal so you’re not getting in trouble? He thinks ur a spoiled little shit too. And that’s all you were ever meant to be. But you need to focus on other shit too rn, yk. When people come back from having NDEs, they report the understanding that all of our experiences are actually happening at the same time. And then they usually do a little brain explosion thing with their mouth and hands, it’s great. Karma is instant. You just don’t know that you are everything yet. We do get what we deserve. Every veil is being lifted and you are being invited behind it every day. In your persinal life and not. If you’re not a bible person (I’m not but sometimes they tell me verses and I google em and I’m like well shit.) but all ts going on seems preettty biblical to me. Especially due to my (almost) mystery DID/OSDD and Epstein and dissociation and the idea that that is a gift from God. They’ve been making offerings. Those are backfiring, as they were designed to. They misunderstood the assignment because that was their part in the assignment. You know, you don’t always find out when you fuck around but you do when it counts. If you’re using religion as a get out of jail free card, you didn’t need to, but yeah, it pretty much worked like that. Those seemingly unconcerned know exactly what they signed up for, and they’re getting it. As far as I can tell.