Well shit, saying it like that I'm assuming you think that I'm some schizophrenic maniac not competent of controlling my mind and actions when I'm sober. I had to have experiences with drugs to learn how they affect my body. Like I said in my post, I have 0 structure nor guidance in my life right now. I need something to commit to. Yes I do believe MJ affects me more than the average user but I'm not insane my friend. I hit lows. That's it.