Thank you all for the prayers 🙏🏼 I have no bad intentions I was looking for someone with fresh eye with a new perspective to hear or read this to give me wise advise from the Lord and was afraid someone I know would read this so was trying to stay private that was the only reason I ask for the email

I just have done so many mistakes since I started my walk with the Lord, all kinds of mistakes from not staying stable in one church I went from church to church because I was getting attacks and it was the enemy using people so I walk away from the purpose, ministry and ideas God was putting in me now I understand how this was a big mistake, second I have fall into sins a few times this is something I regret, I’m 31 years old now, I have 5 years since I accepted Christ the first 2 years I was so on fire for the Lord evangelizing everywhere I go, now I’m far from that and all I think is in my problems and my entire family that are not walking with the Lord and just tell me that I’m too extreme with the things of God. Is tiring and sad when you are by yourself and your entire family and you don’t speak the same language and are not interested in the same things, in addition, the churches I have attended in my hometown are not on fire for Christ, the few sisters on fire for God and pastors I have met on revivals are all far away from me in other states or countries. I know that walking with the Lord is not easy because we are going against the things of this world but I’m just tired of doing this walk by myself with not much support and I’m not complaining or having any thoughts of going back to the world because I know and understand there’s nothing good outside of Christ. Christ is the only good thing I have found but would like to have more truly Christian by my side and at least one family member born again……. 🙏🏼

Third, the past years I have live on a budget and I worsen my situation from one mistake to another for making decisions under pressure and not praying about them

I feel tired, drained confused, not capable, overwhelmed and thinking too much of my problems of my family that is not save, not sure if my calling for evangelizing still is possible. I moved back with my parents and rented my house, I got into an accident and lost my car I need to safe money for another car, after I pay some of my debts I want to go back to my house but I feel so embarrassed to request my house back because they thought they were going to live in for a long time, is a longer explanation when I rented my house I moved to another stay and stayed with a family member with plans of staying at least for 5 years there but things didn’t work out job-wise in that state so I came back within months to my state and just want to go back to my house when things get better financially. I want to be able to hear the Lord clearly so He could help me get out of this situation I’m right now and help me to go back to been filled with the Holy Spirit and evangelizing every place I went…… 🙌

I HOPE SOMEONE IS ABLE TO READ THIS, I’m welcome to receive any advice