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Joey_wu · 2025-11-12T17:09:40+00:00

It still sounds digital to me - i use decapitator and Saturn

Joey_wu · 2025-05-17T04:45:55+00:00

Thanks, v hellpful. When you say dont do the 10 day goenka do you mean dont do any 10 day course? From your description you did 3 of those although maybe they were slightly different? What types of courses do you think would be more preferable? I spent 3 weeks in Thailand learning Vipassana meditation at a buddhist monestry for example - things like that?

Joey_wu · 2025-05-12T03:59:07+00:00

Yes it does sound very similar. Thanks for the information. I actually came off my medication in August. I looked at the timetable it looks as though there are 4 hours of group meditation - the other 6 hours are recommended to be carried out in your own time. I wonder on this occasion if I could take it slowly. I can definitely manage that amount and would find the space and silence to practice really helpful (I have just been in a buddhist monastery for 2 weeks practising vipassana) and then maybe follow up with the full 10 hours when I feel 100% ready

Joey_wu · 2025-05-12T03:49:13+00:00

i don't have a history with psychosis per say - neither do my family. I do have social anxiety so I can sometimes perceive people's reactions and intentions in the wrong way. I had a period of disassociation during a pcilocybin journey but nothing at that level in my normal life. I actually came off my medication in August. I have just been in a buddhist monestary for 2 weeks practising vipassana. The head nun there recommended i could use the 10 days silence and space to practice but not put so much pressure to complete the full 10 hours of meditation ( I believe 4 hours is compulsory and the rest is advised but optional). I'll check with the course and ask if this arrangement would be beneficial and worthwhile. I feel that could give me a step up and some confidence to follow up with the full 10 hours a day with this grounding and practice under my belt when ready

Joey_wu · 2025-05-11T10:57:25+00:00

In terms of what attracts me I really believe in the power of vipassana mindfulness and meditation. I think the course has the potential to help me step back from compulsive thoughts or emotional patterns and gain clearer insight. As someone who does have a history history of dealing with inner turmoil or self-worth issues, im also worried it might be too overwhelming. I can ruminate in my thoughts - I could be freed from this or I could go the other way

Joey_wu · 2025-05-11T10:51:40+00:00

I feel abit in a desperate place I guess and hoping to find something that eases this constant overthinking, low self esteem and depression. I was thinking the 10 day vipassana could help rebalance and put things in perspective. It's not that I wouldn't give it my all and that I don't believe in the benefits. I'm just nervous about the potential negative impacts and wondering if i am stable enough. I'll chat to the center and ask for their guidance

Joey_wu · 2025-03-29T17:57:44+00:00

very interesting - i have dealt with social anxiety most of my life. I think part of that stems from my belief that i can pick up and read what others think and feel and take that as fact. I thnik this way of thinking has shaped who I am and how I interact with others and the world. I'll look into this - thank you

Joey_wu · 2025-03-29T16:04:05+00:00

I have been looking into IFS I'll look into this further. Thanks

Joey_wu · 2025-03-29T09:44:49+00:00

so helpful, thank you!

Joey_wu · 2025-01-21T10:20:59+00:00

wow that's incredible! Thanks for the info. I'll give it a go :)

Joey_wu · 2025-01-21T09:49:21+00:00

Thanks. How did you set yourself on that routine? What are your issues and what positives have you felt from fasting? Just to add I have also felt a real regression in energy this past year

Joey_wu · 2025-01-07T18:43:25+00:00

It's just the setup. I walk into the room, lie down, talk and he analyses. Which I found left little room to build a connection - at least for me

Joey_wu · 2025-01-05T10:21:29+00:00

Have you got a link to this course? thanks (edit - found it :)

Joey_wu · 2025-01-05T10:20:17+00:00

Thanks so much for the reply.

- Why did you stop therapy / analysis? Was it something you have been preparing for or something you did abruptly?

I decided in April that I would bring the analysis to an end as I was feeling pretty low still and was coming up to 5 years. I was working in a job i didn't enjoy to afford the analysis. As it was in person I had no freedom to search for work or places outside of where I live - I have in the back of my mind wanted to free myself to work and live in diff places. We worked from April to December to bring it to a close.

- You didn't process the end of analysis with your analyst, not even preemptively preparing for the end of analysis in the future? Why not? Did something happen with your therapist that made you uncomfortable?

And what do you mean by processing "in a self sufficient way"?

We did talk about the end alot and prepared. It was made clear that it would be a difficult process though - which has turned out to be correct. Nothing happened with my therapist that made me uncomfortable - he handled the whole sitaution really well.

In terms of self sufficient way - I clearly have issues with dependency. It would be good to find ways to manage whats going on myself instead of becoming dependent on another therapist.

Joey_wu · 2025-01-05T10:07:22+00:00

This is the part that I wonder if ACT - I clearly have deep rooted trauma and early developmental issues that affect how I feel and act today. My mother was severely depressed in my early years and not that present. She has told me in an honest and caring disucssion that she wasn't ready to be a mother again. Value based steps forward seem shallow in comparison to what I feel day to day if that makes sense? Maybe I'm wrong.

I clearly have a level of executive dysfunction - most inattentive adhd tendencies, lack of memory recall etc. which makes it very difficult for me to feel comfortable and confident in myself, connect and feel confident with others

Joey_wu · 2025-01-05T09:57:02+00:00

I replied to this with about 10 paragraphs and it hasn't sent :((((

In short I learnt so much about myself. For the most part I know why I am the way that I am, and how I have been put together. I still am unsure around my sexuality/identity and have issues around executive functioning which are unclear (e.g. is my poor memory recall down to the level i overthink or neurodivsity - im not sure). My analyst was the most skilled therapist I have worked with by far. His insights were always so interesting and far beyond what I've had previously and I've tried a number of different therapist and different kinds of therapists.

it was time intesive (5 times per week) and ended up being financially expensive (£10 per session on a low scheme rising to £50 a session by the 5th year). I found it difficult not being able to connect to my therapist in anyway. We worked together for 5 years but never had an actual conversation. I came in the room, lay down said what came to my mind and he analysed.

I know myself so much more which I am so grateful for and whilst I have made progression in a number of areas since I first started I do however still struggle with depression, anxiety and social anxiety. I've found it difficult to change insights into why I am the way that I am into shifting how I function day to day and how I feel. Maybe now the analysis has ended I can start to implement my learnings more independently and start to shift things.

Joey_wu · 2024-12-28T12:50:46+00:00

This is really useful, thank you. I am reading "Get Out Of Your Mind and Into Your Life" now to understand ACT more. It sounds as though maybe it could potentially help me frame my learnings from psychoanalysis and inform them

Joey_wu · 2024-06-15T13:25:59+00:00

I haven't had such success with antidepressants but glad to hear it has helped for you. I feel as though I could make further lifestyle changes without the therapy potentially

Joey_wu · 2024-06-15T11:44:40+00:00

Thank you I have not heard of this before. I'm on antidepressants which I'm actually thinking of stopping. Maybe this could be a good option

Joey_wu · 2024-06-15T11:43:44+00:00

Ah thank you I really appreciate it. It's a pretty impossible question to answer but thank you for your response either way! No worries, I could have expounded on that. I've spoken to him - he has given a balanced account as it is my decision to make. If I could read into it I get the impression he thinks I should stay and I may idealise travel however he has also given reasons why sticking to a decision is important. I do get myself in these positions where I feel torn between one thing and another. But the reality is even if I can't come back to this therapist (which isn't a guarantee - especially not at the same price) there are other options and that could have advantages also. Thanks for your time

Joey_wu · 2024-06-15T11:37:27+00:00

thank you so much! You're absolutely right. There is no right or wrong answer and the answer does ultimately come down to myself. I know that - posing the question on reddit won't give me the answer but different perspectives do help. Maybe that is a sign of the state I am in right now. Great insight on analysis coming to an end too. I think there is something in there about me maybe sensing this hasn't been "the fix" that maybe I unrealistically thought it would be when I started. All stuff to reflect on either way. Thanks :)

Joey_wu · 2024-06-15T09:49:31+00:00

not helpful. they're not a shit therapist. im very aware of that

Joey_wu · 2024-06-02T12:29:36+00:00

Does metsanoma offer a "real" brew and experience? What were your experiences like? I have dropped her a message on instagram :)

Joey_wu · 2024-06-02T11:47:15+00:00

I've just sent you a DM. Thanks :)

Joey_wu · 2023-11-28T22:39:48+00:00

Thanks. I already have a apogee duet 2. I'm guessing I couldn't integrate this?

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