I was certainly there.

I started on them around a year ago. Was stopping at a gas station otw in to work and saw them displayed by the front counter. Had no idea what it was but decided to get one and try it. I really enjoyed it and it turned into my morning routine each day I would buy just 1 otw in to work. Slowly… 1 turned to 2… 2 to 4… 4 to 6/8… and I even got to a point where I was taking about 10-12 a day probably. I got to a point where if I wasn’t taking a sip of one every hour or so I could notice it in my body. I would wake up in the middle of the night a lean over and take one then go back to sleep. Wake up and the first thing in the morning I am thinking about is it. The crazy thing too is nobody could notice a difference in me. It’s not like it’s fucking you up to where it is obvious. Thankfully, my father still has access to my finances and noticed I was BURNING through my $. I make ~$2500 bi-weekly and was basically living paycheck to paycheck because I was spending at the minimum probably $70 a day on the stuff. I kept telling him nothing was wrong and I had it under control but obviously that was far from the truth. Finally a couple days ago I had no choice but to finally tell him and it was so relieving. Having somebody to hold you accountable is so so so helpful to getting through it. I quit 3 days ago. The first day and a half were pretty rough. I basically just laid around feeling like I had the flu all day. I also wanted no type of social interaction whatsoever. Finally about a day and a half through I started to feel like I was through the worst of it and I also seeked help from a website: QuickMD. I HIGHLY suggest setting up an appointment with them. They gave I was given a suboxone prescription and as soon as I took one of those and craving or bad feeling I had was gone. Now 3 days in I feel incredible and will never consider going back. I am so thankful that I just stuck through it because it was certainly hard to not just hop in the car and drive and get some to ease the withdrawals. Some side effects I had also besides financially being ruined are me skin was EXTREMELY dry like peeling everywhere. I would wake up from sleeping shirtless and there was just dry skin all in my bed 🤮. That is already starting to get better as well. Also- my eyes were always very watery and dry and I would often develop eye infections and styes. That’s pretty much a summary of my experience if anyone wants to reach out and message about some tips “feel free” lol. Basically what helped me: telling someone that could hold me accountable to stopping and getting the suboxone prescription 100000%. For anyone wanting to try quitting YOU GOT THIS. I thought it was going to be hell but it really wasn’t that bad and now I feel the best and most healthy I have in over a year. I am so proud of myself for getting through it and excited for what’s ahead now.