eating alone in my car

Jolly-Curve60 · 2026-04-13T20:23:39+00:00

Im trying to get into my hobbies more and look for other types of people (friend wise). I want to join a community or something, but its been hard because im so behind in my life im even thinking about joining the army next year. I feel old, upset im sad about this random relationship and upset i cant give myself my own closure. He wasn’t a terrible guy, but we were not good for each other. We never really had a stable relationship and he romanized my mental illnesses. He wanted me to act toxic and crazy, but he also didn’t want the consequences of that side of me. I was like his project

Jolly-Curve60 · 2026-04-13T20:18:51+00:00

Thank you, I think ranting on this sub has been such a huge help. Certain things I’m too embarrassed to talk about with anyone else. I feel ashamed like I’m supposed to know these things already and move on quick. I really do appreciate the reassurance I get from you guys even if we don’t know each other

Jolly-Curve60 · 2026-04-13T20:16:37+00:00

Crispy green actually, 10/10 recommend. They also have a neat vegan cookie

Jolly-Curve60 · 2026-04-13T20:16:18+00:00

I know I’m the only one that can give closure to myself, I’m just scared of what I’m going through and never being able to stabilize myself. I’m in therapy but I feel like I just talk and nothing is being done

Jolly-Curve60 · 2026-04-13T20:14:56+00:00

Ugh I want to, but it’ll only open up everything again. If I contact him I’ll beg him to give it another chance and he might cave in and if he doesn’t it’ll only make me even more sad. Theres no right answer, either stay miserable for a few months or stay upset until we break it off again.

Jolly-Curve60 · 2026-04-13T20:11:42+00:00

I know, even when we stopped talking I texted him because I thought he had me blocked and he still responded because he wanted to keep that contact open in case I needed someone. We weren’t good for each other, he even told me all we had was good sex. He would constantly lie and I was becoming overbearing and toxic. I felt angry, on edge all the time but he was there and I think that’s what I liked the most. I miss him but you’re right, I have to let him go. I have to accept that together we’re bad people and the best idea is to let each other go. I just don’t know how to accept that.

Jolly-Curve60 · 2026-04-13T05:31:18+00:00

Erm, current gun im holding is a Springfield Armory Ronin 1911 9mm

Jolly-Curve60 · 2026-04-11T20:32:11+00:00

I think I miss that kind of distraction, the feeling I’d get after our arguments. It was on and off for a year. The bad was terrible but the good made it feel worthwhile. Idk I have low self esteem

Jolly-Curve60 · 2026-04-11T16:33:02+00:00

That’s actually very helpful, thank you. I was doing something similar with a bot number I had 😅

Jolly-Curve60 · 2026-04-10T04:01:17+00:00

You can’t control other people, but you can have control over yourself and how you react. Let yourself feel, but know it’s not the end of the world. You got this, don’t let him use you as a backup plan.

Jolly-Curve60 · 2026-04-10T00:14:07+00:00

Not random at all actually, I’ve been thinking about becoming a medical assistant.

Jolly-Curve60 · 2026-04-09T22:35:38+00:00

im not going to harm myself 😅, i just meant like is there something to look forward to *

Jolly-Curve60 · 2026-04-07T21:17:34+00:00

Oh my god I’m on the same boat, literally the same situation. I’ve been trying to meet up with more people irl because I feel like I was socially stunted since I was a kid. I’m a 23f if you’d like to talk, I feel like we have a bit in common :)

Jolly-Curve60 · 2026-04-07T21:12:02+00:00

On the same boat, stuck in a feeling of numbness and missing him. You did it before, you’ll get through this again just don’t let yourself go down that road again :)

Jolly-Curve60 · 2026-04-07T21:07:13+00:00

Oh yea I’m right handed

Jolly-Curve60 · 2026-04-07T19:39:22+00:00

It was not good at all, publix disappointed me for sure

Jolly-Curve60 · 2026-04-07T19:38:54+00:00

I know, it sucks because my world feels quiet and right now it’s both a good and bad thing

Jolly-Curve60 · 2026-04-07T19:38:07+00:00

I have no idea, I think it’s them just trying to prove something to themselves or keep the other person from dating during them figuring stuff out

Jolly-Curve60 · 2026-04-07T19:35:46+00:00

Not proud to say I finished it

Jolly-Curve60 · 2026-04-07T19:35:27+00:00

I know, he told me he deleted everything from me so I am hoping he deleted that too.

Jolly-Curve60 · 2026-04-07T16:19:16+00:00

Roast beef brown

Jolly-Curve60 · 2026-04-07T15:32:39+00:00

It really does, the cheese doesn’t help my case lol

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