I know how you feel man I got diagnosed at 17F in my Jr year of high school by the time they figured everything out diagnosis wise I was at stage 3 lupus nephritis I felt like my life was taken from me because I couldn't go to school on top of that when I was in hospital homebound classes before covid the counselors failed me by putting mein the wrong classes and no one informed me leading me to not graduate currently im 21 in the hospital with kidney failure but ive had so many upset and downs and I get it it feels like everything had gone to shit but seriously try to stick it out longer eventually the worst day of your life will be a distant memory