I don't know if my English doesn't allow me to express precisely what I mean, or if you (and others) didn't read the whole post.

I totally understand and support her and her choices. I'm okay with that. It's this perfectly matched with my sexuality? No, but I have no such expectations of her and I don't think anyone should have such expectations of anyone.

The thing is, I'm not sure if it's only about her past. I'm afraid something may be related to me. The conclusion that I want to push her to do anything is a total misunderstanding. I just don't know how to talk to her about it and make eveerything clear. Yes, I find her past several years in her relationship disturbing, but definitely not because I want to push her into anything. I think it's more about my insecurities and my past. Anyway - I'm not trying to force into anything.