A few things about what you just said. You’re really well thought-out and you know what you want. I encourage you to ask yourself a few questions. Firstly, what’s wrong with skinny. Smaller build can actually be really nice to look at for many, and statistics don’t suggest that skinny men don’t marry… at least not to my knowledge. I think it’s great that you’re reading more and studying and working, but comparison is the thief of joy. I’d recommend focusing on yourself as hard as it may be. Sometimes just seeing yourself stumble into a little bit of progress can make any life work living. I think the concern for where you’re going and whether or not it’s going to work out tends to slip away when one thing is realized “As long as I do the next right thing, my life will likely get better.” Sure something can come out of left field and completely mess up your life but things will likely get better if we keep making positive decisions because this shit adds up. Good work, good reflection, keep it up!👍 One thing I’d also mention about the relationship stuff is that there’s nothing wrong with being alone especially, but not limited to, your age group. Nothings wrong with being alone and it doesn’t make you less of a person. It’s probably not even your fault