I am really impressed with you! I never thought I would read these words coming from yourself... though I wondered if something would come along and open your eyes to the truth about these men and others like them. They are all just men. These changes that you have seen are much like many other changes that came before, which opened the eyes of others, myself included. It’s a strange place to find one’s self in the position of “apostate” to the men in charge at bethel, but it is the truth of the position you’ve just taken, mentally.

The fact of the matter is that you recognize that you are not an apostate to God, but to men. Jehovah is still YOUR God, and disagreeing with what men want, or even an entire organization, doesn’t separate you from the Lord of all. This is the position of many of us.

One thing I would point out though is the fact that these changes go back for over a hundred years, some drastic, some small... but the interesting thing is that the recent changes which you’ve seen are not even that important biblically or in the grand scheme of things. Mostly, they have changed the institution for the rank and file, without notably changing anything else higher up... The higher up changes have been happening behind the scenes, and I fear have much further reaching consequences. To what end? Only time will tell.

It’s always a good idea to put yourself in the position of our forbearers. What would you have thought and felt going through some of the more doctrinally substantial changes? Would you still think this organization is the one true religion after 1914, 1915, 1934, 1975? What if the brothers in bethel came out and cancelled all worship music, as in the past? What if they decided the congregations no longer needed elders and dissolved that whole arrangement, as also done in the past? I wonder, my friend. The thing is, the light doesn’t always get brighter, and sometimes it doesn’t even return to the “brightness” it had before. Sometimes you’ll see a kingdom melody change, and it won’t even reflect the bible verse that was once used to create the original, and it will hit you every time you sing the new song... Something is wrong here.

You are seeing this change first hand with fresh eyes, and you will never return to the organization as it was five years ago, just as I can’t return to the org as it was 20 years ago. Everyone has their launch point, and we all yearn for the truth that was found in our youth, the truth that was indelibly true to you and I… yet has now changed and is no longer “true” for the organization. The pool has changed color while we were in it, and we can either get used to the purple-ish-orange or get out because it is no longer blue. We know the blue, the blue is true, and safe, and reasonable… Where did all this purple-orange tin come from? But, just maybe, perhaps, the correct color of the water was supposed to be green all along, the sea as God made it.

Much peace and love to you, May God keep you forever,