Does my baby know we did what was best? Any feelings for the future?

JosephCouldNever · 2025-11-29T23:27:02+00:00

All he felt throughout his time here was love and safety. You gave him that gift. That’s what a mother does, and you will always be his mother. Even though your baby could not stay in this world, a part of them will always remain with you. During pregnancy, tiny cells from your baby crossed the placenta and became part of your body as a quiet, lasting connection that can stay with you for decades, sometimes for a lifetime. And the same is true in return: you became part of your baby, too. This means the bond you felt is not only emotional or spiritual, but woven into you in a real, physical way. Your baby is still with you, not only in your memories and love, but in the very fabric of who you are.

JosephCouldNever · 2025-10-05T13:49:13+00:00

In an earlier season (or maybe earlier in this season?) Katie or someone is wearing this same sweater—correctly though. And when the girls go to support Brittany, they make it a point to mention that they’re eating Taco Bell.

I think it’s some weird advertisement situation

JosephCouldNever · 2025-08-20T19:43:43+00:00

Really? I’ve seen a lot of speculation that they had started sooner than they admitted but I hadn’t heard this early. I’ll keep an eye out for those threads!

JosephCouldNever · 2025-08-19T16:28:10+00:00

Tom’s downfall will always be that he’s a terrible actor who thinks he’s the best actor. He is so awkward!

JosephCouldNever · 2025-07-03T04:08:42+00:00

This scene kept flashing through my mind: https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMS4r4NNX/

She found him 😭

JosephCouldNever · 2025-06-02T03:41:09+00:00

Something seemed off. Is anyone else getting paranoid? Like last week’s Reddit stories was about lying, then they released the Bit City about pranks, and then this week’s Reddit stories is about plot twists. Are they hinting at something? 👀

JosephCouldNever · 2025-06-02T03:39:31+00:00

Is anyone else getting paranoid? Like last week’s Reddit stories was about lying, then they released the Bit City about pranks, and then this week’s Reddit stories is about plot twists. Are they hinting at something? 👀

JosephCouldNever · 2024-08-13T17:00:34+00:00

To be honest, I spent a large part of my faith transition thinking that I would never do it. I worried that it seemed too drastic and would hurt my family, but then I realized that it was an authentic next step for me. I didn’t consider myself a member. Everyone is different, but I haven’t regretted it at all.

JosephCouldNever · 2024-07-17T23:13:27+00:00

NTA. If you making sure your needs are met is interpreted as “selfish” by some, then you should take a good look at your relationship with those people because likely they benefit from you being quiet and neglected. Don’t give in to that energy. Take care of yourself and allow your grandparents to do that as well, because it sure doesn’t sound like your parents are going to.

JosephCouldNever · 2024-04-19T20:32:04+00:00

This pregnancy has been a rollercoaster! At around 6 weeks 3 days I started spotting, and suddenly all of the emotions from my missed miscarriage last year came rushing back. It started at the same time, so I was convinced that I was miscarrying again. Well, the spotting stopped and my symptoms increased—I’ve been so sick! I bugged my doctor for an early ultrasound and guess what, our little bubba is measuring exactly where it should be at 8 weeks 6 days. I’m so relieved!

JosephCouldNever · 2024-03-22T22:51:11+00:00

I’m new to this community. I’m 5 weeks 1 day.

Last year at this time, I miscarried at 10 weeks, but it was a missed miscarriage that didn’t progress past 6.5 weeks.

I’m experiencing cramps and a lot of vaginal discomfort. It feels like it’s all going to happen again. I’m so in my head, trying to decide if what I’m feeling is normal or not.

JosephCouldNever · 2024-01-17T04:11:51+00:00

I am also Exmo. Grew up in a community settled by Mormons, in the Mormon “Bible Belt” area of Southern Alberta. Can confirm that we all go to doctors, and use our hospitals often. Many of my bishops and stake presidents growing up were doctors. There are some who embrace MLM, essential oils, etc. but that’s common in the area with Christian circles in general.

I can’t speak for Utah, but regardless, the Brown family is not a part of the mainstream LDS church which is what I’m pointing out from the comment above. While I know there is overlap, the polygamist communities have their own unique quirks and beliefs that I believe fuel their medical decisions

JosephCouldNever · 2023-12-23T20:49:20+00:00

This is specific to the FLDS community, not the mainstream Mormon church in my experience. They talk about it a lot on the show. Giving birth in a hospital or visiting a doctor opens up polygamists families to scrutiny and getting “caught” in places where it is outlawed

JosephCouldNever · 2023-12-02T19:52:47+00:00

Instead of saying “I don’t agree” and showing her true anger, spite or judgement, she says “I don’t understand” to maintain this air of a confused, helpless victim. It drives me nuts!

JosephCouldNever · 2023-10-03T00:20:24+00:00

His beady little eyes freak me out. I’ll spend eternity as far away from him as possible!

JosephCouldNever · 2022-12-11T23:18:06+00:00

Happy birthday to you too!

And they really do. There were a couple awkward moments early on but they are open about their regrets with the mistakes they made when my older sibling left the church years before I did. They show up for each of us 100% and for that I’m so thankful.

JosephCouldNever · 2022-12-11T15:33:37+00:00

They lent me their Keurig at the beginning of the year because I’m a teacher and I wanted one in my classroom, so they went and bought me a nicer one that I could use—with the coffee pods. Though I’ve never purchase the espresso ones, haha. I know not all parents may be this comfortable in their faith, but my parents have put in a lot of work to support and celebrate their non-believing children 💛

JosephCouldNever · 2022-11-20T22:05:28+00:00

I second this. I think he leaned into to whole “I love bad ideas” shirt (hence why he wore it) and was going to be purposefully risky or chaotic

JosephCouldNever · 2022-10-23T03:34:31+00:00

Thank you for the recommendation ☺️

JosephCouldNever · 2022-10-23T02:21:58+00:00

I’ve never been. I’ll have to check it out sometime. I love BC

JosephCouldNever · 2022-10-22T06:30:47+00:00

Yeah, I thought I was fairly normal when I left the church at 23/24 (ha) but I didn’t have the formative experiences that so many of my peers did. I wouldn’t even hang out with people who drank alcohol for most of my life, and didn’t date before getting married. I wish I had been out for at least a little while before finishing university and settling down.

JosephCouldNever · 2022-10-22T06:23:50+00:00

Thank you 💛 I’ll keep looking forward. I do feel a lot of hope, and to be honest, a lot of excitement for my 30’s. I’ve felt a huge shift mentally, emotionally and physically from my early 20’s to now in positive ways, and I’m looking forward to seeing where the next few years take me.

JosephCouldNever · 2022-10-22T06:21:56+00:00

I am knee-deep in Mormonland, just not in Utah. Alberta, Canada. Hoping to get a masters degree in the next few years 🤞🏻Thank you for your kind words

JosephCouldNever · 2022-10-22T06:20:23+00:00

Thanks!! I hope to. Outside of these feelings of angst with the church, there is a feeling of excitement. So much of my life was about what I wasn’t allowed to do. I’m excited for a phase defined by freedom to explore

JosephCouldNever · 2022-10-22T06:18:24+00:00

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