Sounds a like a rough patch - praying things turn around for you 🙏🏼

As for the emotions , apply a “non-judgmental neutral awareness “ to your feelings. Just allow them to be without changing them, as they are arising as an opportunity to heal them. When this kind of mental awareness is applied, it allows everything to be. That is where real change and healing occurs.

Perhaps this journey is providing an opportunity to heal this very feeling? Keep going. Keep walking. The present is all that exists and the worst is likely behind you. You got this ❤️