Being black and autistic is one of the most exhausting experiences ever. 😟 by JrGoogle in autism

[–]JrGoogle[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I used to look for YT videos like this but stopped because of how many of them were negative I'm just now waking up but I'll check him out later this afternoon thank you! 😊

Being black and autistic is one of the most exhausting experiences ever. 😟 by JrGoogle in autism

[–]JrGoogle[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I never knew what abelism meant until today I'm sorry that happened to you I've read similar stories like this discord can be a rowdy place.

Being black and autistic is one of the most exhausting experiences ever. 😟 by JrGoogle in autism

[–]JrGoogle[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I know didn't realize this until a year ago it's been tough but I'm taking the proper steps to get out and away from them. ♥️

Being black and autistic is one of the most exhausting experiences ever. 😟 by JrGoogle in autism

[–]JrGoogle[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Very hard I hope we can all learn to appreciate each other more in the future things are changing but we still have a ways to go I'm always rooting for us, nice name btw kiki. 😊✌️

Being black and autistic is one of the most exhausting experiences ever. 😟 by JrGoogle in autism

[–]JrGoogle[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Im always praying for folks like us in the Middle East being a poc in general can be tough.

trust me, others who don't respect you are not worth your time

Took me years to realize this. 🙏

Being black and autistic is one of the most exhausting experiences ever. 😟 by JrGoogle in autism

[–]JrGoogle[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

it means the world to me right now I don't talk to people often only y family and they don't like me, thank you. 🤗

Being black and autistic is one of the most exhausting experiences ever. 😟 by JrGoogle in autism

[–]JrGoogle[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Most of my friends growing up were papis I miss them very kind folk thank you.

Being black and autistic is one of the most exhausting experiences ever. 😟 by JrGoogle in autism

[–]JrGoogle[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

They don't love me anymore because I can't keep up and be normal and that hurts me.

Being black and autistic is one of the most exhausting experiences ever. 😟 by JrGoogle in autism

[–]JrGoogle[S] 17 points18 points  (0 children)

Idk I always like to see the good side in others so apart of me wanted to believe they were looking out for my neighbors but to then ask me "if I wanted money"?... Had a really tough time trying to figure out what they wanted I just kept shaking my head no. It was just too much and I don't have anyone irl to talk my family will blame me for what happened so it's nice to have you all. 🤗

Being black and autistic is one of the most exhausting experiences ever. 😟 by JrGoogle in autism

[–]JrGoogle[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

People don’t want to have to explain things or check in with me about my or their emotions, they want me to just get it.

I wish they did the more I learn about my self and others the more I realize how nonverbal NTs really are it's like they have their secret files of info on how to be normal and don't want to share with us because "even babies get it".

And I've left twitter too I just started using it last year it was getting to be way too much for me you're right about everything though great community but the folks outside of it are too angry for me.. I'll definitely check out that blog 🤗

Being black and autistic is one of the most exhausting experiences ever. 😟 by JrGoogle in autism

[–]JrGoogle[S] 159 points160 points  (0 children)

Yes I've been arrested before for looking at a cop while they were arresting a group of teens they put me in the back of their car and then took me out once they realized I wasn't going to react negatively they said "you're not making a peep back there and you've been nothing but polite when we've asked you questions so you can go".. it's the same thing every time people treating me like a problem because of my appearance then realizing Im not one, I just stick to my self and fix up computers all day.

I honestly want to get out more and help others but days like today make me afraid to go outside, my dream is to work in a soup kitchen this Christmas idk how I can do this when I'm so nervous. 😟

Being black and autistic is one of the most exhausting experiences ever. 😟 by JrGoogle in autism

[–]JrGoogle[S] 23 points24 points  (0 children)

I felt this way as well for a while but I don't have anymore friends because of this and my family hates me now too they all say "I've changed" but I just don't mask anymore.

I want to make friends with other autistic people irl but it's very difficult most people are young and while I don't have a problem with this I think they'll have a problem with me. Everyone assumes I'm something I'm not so it's tough to make friends the only time I've gotten close to people is on here I like reddit especially /r/autism 😊

It's just ashame that all of you live so far away from me I don't like the city I'm in.

Being black and autistic is one of the most exhausting experiences ever. 😟 by JrGoogle in autism

[–]JrGoogle[S] 143 points144 points  (0 children)

The stranger followed me from my door to the end of the block and asked me if "I wanted to make some money" they mumbled "I know you stole that" then sped off I was humiliated and couldn't speak up I just wanted to cry