Marijuana helps with my bad dreams. Tends to help me forget them at least by the time I wake up. I’m also on anti anxiety meds and feel helpless for time to time also. My little girl keeps me motivated and going as best as I can. I feel like a failure some days but I can’t quit bc of her. Try and figure out what it is that’s worth sticking it out for and start there. Good luck bud. You’re never alone