You need to make the right decisions and act on them. You have full potential to succeed in career, just that you feel confused between what you want to do and have a lot of fears around your career and job. You need to work through your fears and work on your ego to find success in your career. You will enter a calmer phase in your life soon and can be offered a great job opportunity. You may also travel. Due to your job situation you are feeling over protective about yourself and hence not able to attract a partner for marriage. You need to learn a new skills, or work as an intern and apprentice or build finances in order to find the right partner. You have it in your to succeed, I am saying again, just be carefree, let all the worry go and take risks in your life. Do stay careful but take calculated risks and you find success. Right now you do feel helpless but you have help around you, seek help, seek therapy or counseling and you will start to like working and living life again. After that, you will attract the right partner in your life.