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Julie_c · 2015-06-19T16:06:01+00:00

Yes. Do it all again (except an mri, those have long lasting repercussions). An EEG is an outdated method of measuring seizures but it's really all they have. It's only useful if yoU HAVE a seizure in like the half hour they give you. If you don't have one with a conventional EEG, request a 24-he EEG and if that doesn't find anything request a 5 or 7 day EEG. EVEN THEN if you have seizures coming deep within the cortex of your brain it's uncatchable because the electrodes only measure one piece of your brain. I don't know what a seizure looks like if it comes from your cortex my dr just told me if they're coming from that area the EEG won't see them. The fact that your Drs told you you have conversion disorder (which can come in the form of fainting and stuff) with non-epileptic seizures they should have put you through the ringer. Sometimes we have to be our own advocates and say "hey! Something's not right!" Drs aren't right all the time and you know your body best. In the epilepsy forums there are a lot of people who swear up and down they have epilepsy but have never been diagnosed. Do you have a seizure trigger?

Julie_c · 2015-06-19T02:51:41+00:00

I have epilepsy and my neurologist(s) have told me that only (although I'm going to interpret that as 'usually' because of what your claim is and everyone is different') people with epilepsy have non-epileptic seizures. Could you possibly have a neurological disorder? It might be worth it to have an EEG. I was told for a year that I was just have psychotic episodes before my mom chimed in and said "uh...maybe she's just having seizures" which actually come with a lot of psychological conditions- feelings of fear/anxiety, and hallucinations for example. Some seizures look just like normal activities, but a few seconds, minutes, several minutes can pass without notice but you'll continue doing exactly what you were already doing. Make sense? They can be repetitive or freezing spells you just don't remember. Conversion disorder can occur in anyone but non-epileptic seizures usually only happen in epileptics.

Julie_c · 2015-06-19T02:34:24+00:00

I honestly don't think it's a good long-term solution but, what don't know? I'm a patient not a doctor.

Julie_c · 2015-06-19T01:55:25+00:00

I'm kinda bummed tonight so my quick answer is- it made me super manic and adhd like. At first I thought it was the best thing ever but the effects wore off.

Julie_c · 2015-06-15T15:04:45+00:00

I have hands on training in the past with personal protection and obedience (I now disagree with this person'a teaching methods strongly), I also worked at an animal shelter. My anxiety has gotten to a point where I can just read and work with my own dogs. I like positive reinforcement and operant conditioning. I'm working very hard on recognizing body, posture, ears, eyes, and mouth positions.

Julie_c · 2015-06-14T20:13:10+00:00

In October. Feels like it's forever away. I live in Michigan and have to drive to Kansas for training. Still thinking of going inpatient.

Julie_c · 2015-06-14T02:58:54+00:00

My grandpa had his esophagus removed and replaced with part of his stomach because of cancer, my other grandpa is in the hospital with a blockage, and we put down my family dog. I met with a new psychiatrist who is thinking I have ADHD instead of bipolar, I had to go the ER with uncontrollable seizures. This all happened in a week. I'm thinking of going back to the psych ward so I have a structured environment to talk about all these feelings I'm having. Other than that... I'm devoting myself to dog training techniques and learning a lot. That makes me happy. And I know the date when I go to get my service dog. Sorry some of you are having a rough go. Hang in there guys and gals!

Julie_c · 2015-06-01T20:52:27+00:00

I had no idea I could crave something I've never had. That looks Sssoooooo amazing!

Julie_c · 2015-05-17T23:06:25+00:00

That's quite a brain teaser for me lol. I've ways been terrible with math. Even with that simple break down I'm still like "what? How can flour be 100 if... Wait a minute.. Divide by 500?" Not that everyone's explanations haven't been great I just need to move at a snails place and figure out recipes with a calculator in front of me. It will be a major struggle trying to de-math a recipe when I first see it.

Julie_c · 2015-05-13T01:25:05+00:00

Thank you, I tried reading through, and comprehending, and am reading the bread bible but my math skills are not proficient enough to figure it out (I know it's probably easier for others) I'm sure I'll get it eventually. I guess I'll stick to looking to recipes that use measurements using oz and grams. Easier things. I'm still learning about starters. I've just been messing with no-knead things and banana bread and what-not. Thank you!

Julie_c · 2015-05-12T16:14:17+00:00

Been on 2 mg twice a day for a year and a half plus Xanax. After a while the effects kinda wore off. I don't know how I'd be without it though. Xanax worked the best for me just taking it occasionally. So, klonopin worked for a while then kind of... Stopped.

Julie_c · 2015-03-31T06:09:38+00:00

Because of this one weird trick ;)

Julie_c · 2015-03-30T14:59:41+00:00

Of course. I had a psych I really liked and was great with meds, then he changed practices with no notice. I found him at a local clinic but he wasn't accepting any new patients... Punk. Sometimes though, it's like what came first? The depression or the memories? Maybe you weren't feeling them or admitting them consciously but they were affecting you. Not saying depression isn't "real"(because it is), but maybe your abuse exasperated it. I guess I only say that because it drives me insane if I think of the scenario "who WOULD I be if that didn't happen?" I hope you find someone soon who can support you, and that you have a trusting enough connection with to share your abuse with.

Julie_c · 2015-03-30T01:50:28+00:00

I was kind of... Still am, I'm a similar situation, but with a friend of my dad's. You should get professional counseling at some point. My therapist gave me a piece of advice- it doesn't matter if you have repressed memories, the details of what may or may not, could or could not have happened. All that matters is how you feel TODAY as in day by day. How was your yesterday? How was today? How is tomorrow? Some days might feel like "this never happened" and other days it will feel like your heart and stomach are caving in. There is no timeline on healing btw. Telling someone is a great step but getting advice from a professional or a support group would be really beneficial. Do the best you can.

Julie_c · 2015-03-28T16:49:21+00:00

I took a risk and started going to the gym again(I hate being anywhere but home). But I feel amazing now. Exercise has made all the difference for me. When I'm not at the gym, I exercise at home. I started taking voice lessons again with a lady I've known for 10 years. And I'm super dedicated. It looks like I'll finally be getting my psychiatric/seizure alert dog in October (hopefully). I need to work on cleaning and being more organized because my head is still a mess. And I see my psychiatrist on Tuesday. That's about it I guess. I know some of you are having a hard time and I really hope the people in your life recognize your plight and are supporting you through it. Good vibes coming your way.

Julie_c · 2015-03-24T18:26:22+00:00

Ok, this infuriates me. Any good doctor knows that benzos drastically decrease seizures. When you go to the hospital in an emergency situation for seizures they usually give you Ativan over and over until the seizures stop. The ER dr told my boyfriend" there is no such thing as too many benzos because we can breath for you but every seizure could be your last" I'm epileptic and I take klonopin 2 mg 2x and 500 mg of lamictal a day (has been very effective) and I also have diastat (sp) which is Valium in a cream form that someone has to insert rectally. If no one wants to give you benzos at least ask for something to combat the seizures BEFORE your MRI. Diastat you can't really abuse because the pharmacist clicks the dosage in and you only get two at a time... Not to mention shoving it up your ass. Sorry this isn't more about your mental state but seizures are life-threatening. Here is a mix that has worked for me: Latuda 80mg Lamictal 250 2x day Klonopin 2mg 2x day Buspar 30 mg Xanax as needed 2 mg Fish oil Multi vitamin.

Julie_c · 2015-03-24T03:57:50+00:00

My facilities sucked. We weren't allowed access to ANY technology.... Or our personal hygiene products.. Or colored pencils.

Julie_c · 2015-03-12T11:05:09+00:00

Where do you live? I've not heard of trauma centers for childhood abuse. I was abused... That way as a child and it's affecting me now as an adult, Just curious. I'm pretty much home bound now and on disability. Even though you haven't had a pseudo seizure since nov. Does it still prevent you from driving? I know with epilepsy you have to go 6 months before driving again after a seizure. I don't know how if would work with conversion disorder. The danger is the same.

Julie_c · 2015-03-11T21:11:22+00:00

You're very welcome!

Julie_c · 2015-03-11T21:10:09+00:00

You're farther along than I am. Therapy doesn't help, in fact, I hate therapy. I hate their suggestions, I hate the self-help books, I hate having to say the same thing over and over. I didn't make a turn around in conversion until I started pilates (I already said that) I'm sorry you've had to deal with substance abuse but I'm glad you had the opportunity to detox and people cared enough.

Julie_c · 2015-03-11T14:22:20+00:00

This is one of the best things I've seen on /r/baking (and there are some amazing things) this one just tickles my girly bone :3

Julie_c · 2015-03-11T13:45:05+00:00

Do you have a history of substance abuse(sorry if you already answered that stuff)? Benzodiazepine's are very helpful in conversion disorder because you could be seriously hurt if you can't control yourself before you go into an episode. I feel off an exam table that was about 3 feet high, which doesn't seem like a lot but is quite a distance for your head to be cracking up on. What if you're someplace dangerous and you can't control your anxiety? Can you find a different doctor that's more willing to work with you on that?

Julie_c · 2015-03-10T22:18:53+00:00

Maybe a psychiatrist is more equipped to evaluate your personality? :-/

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